I'll be leaving for Oklahoma this weekend to see Katie. :) I'm pretty excited since I never get to see her over the summer and she leaves soon to study abroad in Italy! :( My Dad was sweet enough to pay for the trip, which I really appreciate... it's a grad gift if you will, because they know how much I want to see her. I'll be there til the 6th.. then Ashley will be in town til the 12th, so that should be fun too. :) :)
I've been thinking that around this time a year ago I would be getting ready to head back to ISU, packing shit up, driving down to the apartment and loading everything in. But, this year... when mid August rolls around, I don't have to go back. And, I'm sort of relieved. Yes, college was in fact the best four years of my life, and I can never replace the wonderful memories that happened there, but at the same time, I won't miss living in that apartment, or walking to classes in below zero weather. Now, I will just be at home, hoping that when the college kids leave I can take their hours at work, so I can make more money to start paying off my loans come December. That's what I'm worried about now. That's what life is now. Loans, loans, and did I mention loans? Oh, and applying for jobs, which I am really starting to hate. It seems futile, even though I know I shouldn't give up, a part of me really, and truly, wants to.
I just think grad school might be in the cards for me. Maybe a school in downtown Chicago? Or, out of state? I would prefer out of state for the hell of it, for the adventure of it all... but, given money issues... who knows. I want to be south.. I don't want to deal with winters anymore or ever again for that matter.
That is definitely my life.... thus far.
Do you ever ask yourself what love is? What is it? How do you know you feel it/have it? Or, do you only realize it was ever there when it's gone? Just some random thoughts for the day I suppose....
Back to applying for jobs, and packing. Laters.
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
La Vida- not so loca
I'll be leaving for Oklahoma this weekend to see Katie. :) I'm pretty excited since I never get to see her over the summer and she leaves soon to study abroad in Italy! :( My Dad was sweet enough to pay for the trip, which I really appreciate... it's a grad gift if you will, because they know how much I want to see her. I'll be there til the 6th.. then Ashley will be in town til the 12th, so that should be fun too. :) :)
I've been thinking that around this time a year ago I would be getting ready to head back to ISU, packing shit up, driving down to the apartment and loading everything in. But, this year... when mid August rolls around, I don't have to go back. And, I'm sort of relieved. Yes, college was in fact the best four years of my life, and I can never replace the wonderful memories that happened there, but at the same time, I won't miss living in that apartment, or walking to classes in below zero weather. Now, I will just be at home, hoping that when the college kids leave I can take their hours at work, so I can make more money to start paying off my loans come December. That's what I'm worried about now. That's what life is now. Loans, loans, and did I mention loans? Oh, and applying for jobs, which I am really starting to hate. It seems futile, even though I know I shouldn't give up, a part of me really, and truly, wants to.
I just think grad school might be in the cards for me. Maybe a school in downtown Chicago? Or, out of state? I would prefer out of state for the hell of it, for the adventure of it all... but, given money issues... who knows. I want to be south.. I don't want to deal with winters anymore or ever again for that matter.
That is definitely my life.... thus far.
Do you ever ask yourself what love is? What is it? How do you know you feel it/have it? Or, do you only realize it was ever there when it's gone? Just some random thoughts for the day I suppose....
Back to applying for jobs, and packing. Laters.
I've been thinking that around this time a year ago I would be getting ready to head back to ISU, packing shit up, driving down to the apartment and loading everything in. But, this year... when mid August rolls around, I don't have to go back. And, I'm sort of relieved. Yes, college was in fact the best four years of my life, and I can never replace the wonderful memories that happened there, but at the same time, I won't miss living in that apartment, or walking to classes in below zero weather. Now, I will just be at home, hoping that when the college kids leave I can take their hours at work, so I can make more money to start paying off my loans come December. That's what I'm worried about now. That's what life is now. Loans, loans, and did I mention loans? Oh, and applying for jobs, which I am really starting to hate. It seems futile, even though I know I shouldn't give up, a part of me really, and truly, wants to.
I just think grad school might be in the cards for me. Maybe a school in downtown Chicago? Or, out of state? I would prefer out of state for the hell of it, for the adventure of it all... but, given money issues... who knows. I want to be south.. I don't want to deal with winters anymore or ever again for that matter.
That is definitely my life.... thus far.
Do you ever ask yourself what love is? What is it? How do you know you feel it/have it? Or, do you only realize it was ever there when it's gone? Just some random thoughts for the day I suppose....
Back to applying for jobs, and packing. Laters.
Monday, July 20, 2009
I Can't Sleep... So I Write Instead...
I just can't seem to sleep these days. Not that it really matters. The only time I get a good rest is if I have been doing physical activity during the day, which if you know me, I live a very sedentary lifestyle.... not good, I know. Or, I am sick.. being ill definitely knocks me out. My throat is a little sore as of right now, but that's because an hour ago... I was chatting away with some old friends from high school... and we were just having good ol girl talk... which is needed every once in awhile. :)
I just got back from a family trip to Lake Geneva, WI. It was fun. Nice to get away from Illinois... get my mind off of my Yia Yia... not that my mind will ever be off of it, but you get the drift. My Aunt joined us... so that was nice. I jetskiied with my sister, and made it out alive, let's just say I prefer the role of passenger in that situation. We also did a ropes course. There will be pics on fb later. My Mom, my sis, and I all climbed a 40ft. pole and then a 60ft. pole to zip down some hundred odd feet. I was scared shitless climbing that damn pole. My fear of heights can be quite crippling at times. Plus my hands were getting sweaty, which really didn't help matters as I tried to lift my body weight by my hands. Needless to say, it was an adrenaline rush... flying down that metal line.... I would do it again in a heartbeat.. if they have staircases instead of metal knobs to reach the top of the zip line. ;)
I got my diploma and my security deposit from Sami in one day. It was a very happy day for me because I have been waiting on both for such a long period of time. :) I like money in the bank. I wish Potbelly's gave me more hours, but since everyone is home for the summer... all the college kids.. I have to wait til they go back to school.. then hopefully days/hours will open up so I can start paying my loans.. and maybe save up for a trip to Italy.
I'll be going to Oklahoma the 1-6 to see my lovely Katie. Then, Ashley will be in town the 6-12.. and I will get to see her too. Finally, spending the summer with college friends.. which is a delight.. because in all my years at ISU we have never had the opportunities to make that happen.
Yeah, I can't think of anything else to report. A haircut is due... applying for jobs, praying for jobs, hoping for big girl jobs... you are going to hear me say that alot... sorry to whomever reads this.
I guess that's it for now. Let adulthood begin... I think.
I just got back from a family trip to Lake Geneva, WI. It was fun. Nice to get away from Illinois... get my mind off of my Yia Yia... not that my mind will ever be off of it, but you get the drift. My Aunt joined us... so that was nice. I jetskiied with my sister, and made it out alive, let's just say I prefer the role of passenger in that situation. We also did a ropes course. There will be pics on fb later. My Mom, my sis, and I all climbed a 40ft. pole and then a 60ft. pole to zip down some hundred odd feet. I was scared shitless climbing that damn pole. My fear of heights can be quite crippling at times. Plus my hands were getting sweaty, which really didn't help matters as I tried to lift my body weight by my hands. Needless to say, it was an adrenaline rush... flying down that metal line.... I would do it again in a heartbeat.. if they have staircases instead of metal knobs to reach the top of the zip line. ;)
I got my diploma and my security deposit from Sami in one day. It was a very happy day for me because I have been waiting on both for such a long period of time. :) I like money in the bank. I wish Potbelly's gave me more hours, but since everyone is home for the summer... all the college kids.. I have to wait til they go back to school.. then hopefully days/hours will open up so I can start paying my loans.. and maybe save up for a trip to Italy.
I'll be going to Oklahoma the 1-6 to see my lovely Katie. Then, Ashley will be in town the 6-12.. and I will get to see her too. Finally, spending the summer with college friends.. which is a delight.. because in all my years at ISU we have never had the opportunities to make that happen.
Yeah, I can't think of anything else to report. A haircut is due... applying for jobs, praying for jobs, hoping for big girl jobs... you are going to hear me say that alot... sorry to whomever reads this.
I guess that's it for now. Let adulthood begin... I think.
I Can't Sleep... So I Write Instead...
I just can't seem to sleep these days. Not that it really matters. The only time I get a good rest is if I have been doing physical activity during the day, which if you know me, I live a very sedentary lifestyle.... not good, I know. Or, I am sick.. being ill definitely knocks me out. My throat is a little sore as of right now, but that's because an hour ago... I was chatting away with some old friends from high school... and we were just having good ol girl talk... which is needed every once in awhile. :)
I just got back from a family trip to Lake Geneva, WI. It was fun. Nice to get away from Illinois... get my mind off of my Yia Yia... not that my mind will ever be off of it, but you get the drift. My Aunt joined us... so that was nice. I jetskiied with my sister, and made it out alive, let's just say I prefer the role of passenger in that situation. We also did a ropes course. There will be pics on fb later. My Mom, my sis, and I all climbed a 40ft. pole and then a 60ft. pole to zip down some hundred odd feet. I was scared shitless climbing that damn pole. My fear of heights can be quite crippling at times. Plus my hands were getting sweaty, which really didn't help matters as I tried to lift my body weight by my hands. Needless to say, it was an adrenaline rush... flying down that metal line.... I would do it again in a heartbeat.. if they have staircases instead of metal knobs to reach the top of the zip line. ;)
I got my diploma and my security deposit from Sami in one day. It was a very happy day for me because I have been waiting on both for such a long period of time. :) I like money in the bank. I wish Potbelly's gave me more hours, but since everyone is home for the summer... all the college kids.. I have to wait til they go back to school.. then hopefully days/hours will open up so I can start paying my loans.. and maybe save up for a trip to Italy.
I'll be going to Oklahoma the 1-6 to see my lovely Katie. Then, Ashley will be in town the 6-12.. and I will get to see her too. Finally, spending the summer with college friends.. which is a delight.. because in all my years at ISU we have never had the opportunities to make that happen.
Yeah, I can't think of anything else to report. A haircut is due... applying for jobs, praying for jobs, hoping for big girl jobs... you are going to hear me say that alot... sorry to whomever reads this.
I guess that's it for now. Let adulthood begin... I think.
I just got back from a family trip to Lake Geneva, WI. It was fun. Nice to get away from Illinois... get my mind off of my Yia Yia... not that my mind will ever be off of it, but you get the drift. My Aunt joined us... so that was nice. I jetskiied with my sister, and made it out alive, let's just say I prefer the role of passenger in that situation. We also did a ropes course. There will be pics on fb later. My Mom, my sis, and I all climbed a 40ft. pole and then a 60ft. pole to zip down some hundred odd feet. I was scared shitless climbing that damn pole. My fear of heights can be quite crippling at times. Plus my hands were getting sweaty, which really didn't help matters as I tried to lift my body weight by my hands. Needless to say, it was an adrenaline rush... flying down that metal line.... I would do it again in a heartbeat.. if they have staircases instead of metal knobs to reach the top of the zip line. ;)
I got my diploma and my security deposit from Sami in one day. It was a very happy day for me because I have been waiting on both for such a long period of time. :) I like money in the bank. I wish Potbelly's gave me more hours, but since everyone is home for the summer... all the college kids.. I have to wait til they go back to school.. then hopefully days/hours will open up so I can start paying my loans.. and maybe save up for a trip to Italy.
I'll be going to Oklahoma the 1-6 to see my lovely Katie. Then, Ashley will be in town the 6-12.. and I will get to see her too. Finally, spending the summer with college friends.. which is a delight.. because in all my years at ISU we have never had the opportunities to make that happen.
Yeah, I can't think of anything else to report. A haircut is due... applying for jobs, praying for jobs, hoping for big girl jobs... you are going to hear me say that alot... sorry to whomever reads this.
I guess that's it for now. Let adulthood begin... I think.
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
Disorganization
Even though I can be, it still annoys me.. when others are... disorganized... here is an example...
I was supposed to get my security deposit from my apartment company that I sadly was with the entire school year. I have not received a check in the mail. I call the company and they inform me that they emailed it to my apartment in Normal, even though I specifically gave them my home address. Wtf? Is it that difficult to follow directions? Really? Idiots.
I also want my diploma. It looks like I'll be giving ISU a call to see where that's at too.
I attended that school for four years, and all I have as of right now to show for it, is the pride that I did it, and a piece of paper that declares it all. Is that too much to ask? I want that piece of paper.
I guess that is all I have to say for now. I need more hours at work, and I'm still on the hunt for either a second job or full time. It would be lovely to make more money.
In other news, I'll be visiting my roomie Katie in Oklahoma very soon. :) I am quite excited about it. I want to see her off before she studies in Italy for an entire year.... tear.
Until then, I'm spending time with family, friends, and making tasty ass sandwiches at Potbelly's... someone come and visit me at work! It would be mucho fun.
I was supposed to get my security deposit from my apartment company that I sadly was with the entire school year. I have not received a check in the mail. I call the company and they inform me that they emailed it to my apartment in Normal, even though I specifically gave them my home address. Wtf? Is it that difficult to follow directions? Really? Idiots.
I also want my diploma. It looks like I'll be giving ISU a call to see where that's at too.
I attended that school for four years, and all I have as of right now to show for it, is the pride that I did it, and a piece of paper that declares it all. Is that too much to ask? I want that piece of paper.
I guess that is all I have to say for now. I need more hours at work, and I'm still on the hunt for either a second job or full time. It would be lovely to make more money.
In other news, I'll be visiting my roomie Katie in Oklahoma very soon. :) I am quite excited about it. I want to see her off before she studies in Italy for an entire year.... tear.
Until then, I'm spending time with family, friends, and making tasty ass sandwiches at Potbelly's... someone come and visit me at work! It would be mucho fun.
Disorganization
Even though I can be, it still annoys me.. when others are... disorganized... here is an example...
I was supposed to get my security deposit from my apartment company that I sadly was with the entire school year. I have not received a check in the mail. I call the company and they inform me that they emailed it to my apartment in Normal, even though I specifically gave them my home address. Wtf? Is it that difficult to follow directions? Really? Idiots.
I also want my diploma. It looks like I'll be giving ISU a call to see where that's at too.
I attended that school for four years, and all I have as of right now to show for it, is the pride that I did it, and a piece of paper that declares it all. Is that too much to ask? I want that piece of paper.
I guess that is all I have to say for now. I need more hours at work, and I'm still on the hunt for either a second job or full time. It would be lovely to make more money.
In other news, I'll be visiting my roomie Katie in Oklahoma very soon. :) I am quite excited about it. I want to see her off before she studies in Italy for an entire year.... tear.
Until then, I'm spending time with family, friends, and making tasty ass sandwiches at Potbelly's... someone come and visit me at work! It would be mucho fun.
I was supposed to get my security deposit from my apartment company that I sadly was with the entire school year. I have not received a check in the mail. I call the company and they inform me that they emailed it to my apartment in Normal, even though I specifically gave them my home address. Wtf? Is it that difficult to follow directions? Really? Idiots.
I also want my diploma. It looks like I'll be giving ISU a call to see where that's at too.
I attended that school for four years, and all I have as of right now to show for it, is the pride that I did it, and a piece of paper that declares it all. Is that too much to ask? I want that piece of paper.
I guess that is all I have to say for now. I need more hours at work, and I'm still on the hunt for either a second job or full time. It would be lovely to make more money.
In other news, I'll be visiting my roomie Katie in Oklahoma very soon. :) I am quite excited about it. I want to see her off before she studies in Italy for an entire year.... tear.
Until then, I'm spending time with family, friends, and making tasty ass sandwiches at Potbelly's... someone come and visit me at work! It would be mucho fun.
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
In Loving Memory
In Loving Memory of Jane Poulakos
November 23,1915-July 1,2009
You will be missed.
This is a poem on the back of the prayer cards.
God saw she was getting tired,
and the cure was not to be,
so He put His arms around her,
and whispered "Come with me"
With tearful eyes we watched
her suffer, and saw her fade away
Although we loved her dearly,
we could not make her stay
A golden heart stopped beating
hard working hands to rest
God broke our hearts to prove
to us, He only takes the best
Yes, this is true.
I just realized I am 22 and I have no more grandparents. I never knew my grandfathers because they both died reasonably young, my Grandma Jane was in a nursing home with Dementia for 10 years. She was there since I was 8, so memories of her are quite fuzzy.... sadly.
I was definitely closer to my Yia Yia. My grandmothers were both named Jane and they both died in July. Strange.
I don't really know what else to say about all this.
I would like to thank Emily, Clarissa, Brianna, and your families for all being there for my family and myself. We greatly appreciate your kindness during this difficult time. Yia Yia loved you girls just like she did my sister and I. She would ask about you and your families all the time. You ladies are basically blood anyway. :) I love you all.... and again, thank you so much for being there. It means the world.
To my other friends that may/may not read this... thank you for your kind words... in text/facebook form... because I was too emotional to talk over the phone. Thank you. It was all appreciated.
November 23,1915-July 1,2009
You will be missed.
This is a poem on the back of the prayer cards.
God saw she was getting tired,
and the cure was not to be,
so He put His arms around her,
and whispered "Come with me"
With tearful eyes we watched
her suffer, and saw her fade away
Although we loved her dearly,
we could not make her stay
A golden heart stopped beating
hard working hands to rest
God broke our hearts to prove
to us, He only takes the best
Yes, this is true.
I just realized I am 22 and I have no more grandparents. I never knew my grandfathers because they both died reasonably young, my Grandma Jane was in a nursing home with Dementia for 10 years. She was there since I was 8, so memories of her are quite fuzzy.... sadly.
I was definitely closer to my Yia Yia. My grandmothers were both named Jane and they both died in July. Strange.
I don't really know what else to say about all this.
I would like to thank Emily, Clarissa, Brianna, and your families for all being there for my family and myself. We greatly appreciate your kindness during this difficult time. Yia Yia loved you girls just like she did my sister and I. She would ask about you and your families all the time. You ladies are basically blood anyway. :) I love you all.... and again, thank you so much for being there. It means the world.
To my other friends that may/may not read this... thank you for your kind words... in text/facebook form... because I was too emotional to talk over the phone. Thank you. It was all appreciated.
In Loving Memory
In Loving Memory of Jane Poulakos
November 23,1915-July 1,2009
You will be missed.
This is a poem on the back of the prayer cards.
God saw she was getting tired,
and the cure was not to be,
so He put His arms around her,
and whispered "Come with me"
With tearful eyes we watched
her suffer, and saw her fade away
Although we loved her dearly,
we could not make her stay
A golden heart stopped beating
hard working hands to rest
God broke our hearts to prove
to us, He only takes the best
Yes, this is true.
I just realized I am 22 and I have no more grandparents. I never knew my grandfathers because they both died reasonably young, my Grandma Jane was in a nursing home with Dementia for 10 years. She was there since I was 8, so memories of her are quite fuzzy.... sadly.
I was definitely closer to my Yia Yia. My grandmothers were both named Jane and they both died in July. Strange.
I don't really know what else to say about all this.
I would like to thank Emily, Clarissa, Brianna, and your families for all being there for my family and myself. We greatly appreciate your kindness during this difficult time. Yia Yia loved you girls just like she did my sister and I. She would ask about you and your families all the time. You ladies are basically blood anyway. :) I love you all.... and again, thank you so much for being there. It means the world.
To my other friends that may/may not read this... thank you for your kind words... in text/facebook form... because I was too emotional to talk over the phone. Thank you. It was all appreciated.
November 23,1915-July 1,2009
You will be missed.
This is a poem on the back of the prayer cards.
God saw she was getting tired,
and the cure was not to be,
so He put His arms around her,
and whispered "Come with me"
With tearful eyes we watched
her suffer, and saw her fade away
Although we loved her dearly,
we could not make her stay
A golden heart stopped beating
hard working hands to rest
God broke our hearts to prove
to us, He only takes the best
Yes, this is true.
I just realized I am 22 and I have no more grandparents. I never knew my grandfathers because they both died reasonably young, my Grandma Jane was in a nursing home with Dementia for 10 years. She was there since I was 8, so memories of her are quite fuzzy.... sadly.
I was definitely closer to my Yia Yia. My grandmothers were both named Jane and they both died in July. Strange.
I don't really know what else to say about all this.
I would like to thank Emily, Clarissa, Brianna, and your families for all being there for my family and myself. We greatly appreciate your kindness during this difficult time. Yia Yia loved you girls just like she did my sister and I. She would ask about you and your families all the time. You ladies are basically blood anyway. :) I love you all.... and again, thank you so much for being there. It means the world.
To my other friends that may/may not read this... thank you for your kind words... in text/facebook form... because I was too emotional to talk over the phone. Thank you. It was all appreciated.
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