Well, a lot has changed for me in the past few weeks. But, that is life I suppose. It keeps things interesting at the very least.
I'm a single woman now, stuff happens I guess. It just wasn't working out, and I'm going to leave it at that. I don't have mean or bitter feelings towards the other party, only slight confusion as to why I believed things I probably shouldn't have for so long. Again, an error on my part. I have no hard feelings for you, and I appreciate you giving me the space I need... that's all on that topic for now.
I also found out from my 'lady doc' that my immune system is severely compromised. This is of course, due to my horrible diet and lack of exercise. Both of which, I am changing drastically. I take vitamins and eat veggies now. I hate veggies, so it's obviously quite serious! I am not ashamed in this next sentence, I am pretty much an open book for the most part, and I don't really have a problem sharing things here. I have been diagnosed with HPV or more commonly known as: human papilloma virus. This doesn't make me a freak or a ho, or anything nasty like that.
If one does their research, one will find that 80% of sexually active individuals have it, have never been tested for it (or chose not to), and continuously infect others without ever realizing it. It's sickening just how common it really is. The dangerous factor, is that it can potentially cause cervical, vaginal, or uterine cancer in some women. The most common of course, is cervical. I had a ridiculously painful procedure called a 'colposcopy' sp? Basically they needed to take samples, and luckily I do not have any precancerous cells developing in my body.
Supposedly you can get rid of it over time, but who knows. I am definitely making that my goal. Most people fight it off on their own, but it's such a new 'phenomenon' of sorts, that even experts don't know if it can flare up again at a later time. I will fight this thing. And, I think it's important to advocate the vaccine before you are sexually active because the vaccine treats 4 types of high risk strains of HPV that do lead to the cancerous cells. I had the injections before I was sexually active, and it still didn't prevent the lower strains from infecting my body.
Either way... get tested, get vaccinated, and make sure you know and trust your sexual partners. I did, and still do know them and their sexual history. I think that's important too, don't ever be ashamed to ask whoever you are with for days, months, or even years... how many people they have been with before you. The saying goes 'however many people they slept with, you have slept with them too'. And, it's true. Keep it open and honest. I live by that rule.
And, the men that I have dated either seriously or casually do not mind opening up and telling me just how many 'relationships', 'hook ups', or casual 'one night stands' they have had. I mean, after all... it is in the past... and it should stay there. Just be smart everyone.
I thought I was being careful, but it looks like I probably should have been more careful. Plus, my health is my own fault. I really do need to watch my diet and exercise. My laziness affected my body in the worst way possible.
Now, onto something different. I really want to move out. Before I turn 30. I have no idea if this is even possible or not, but I sure as hell am going to try. A girl can dream, can't she????? I have one willing maybe roomie, so here's to hoping for a few more so we can get the ball rolling and be independent 'adults' or as much as we all can be.
Also, I am happy because True Blood is back, and it brings joy to my blackened soul.
