Almost Xmas....

Well, it's that time of year AGAIN. When people spend ridiculous amounts of money on gifts for their friends, loved ones, significant others, etc. Well, this year I only have to worry about spending it on my family which is always nice. I save money, and don't get to feel like kicking myself in the face after words. So, good for me.

I feel like the older I get, the Xmas magic has since left me. I'm no longer all that excited for it for opening gifts and that ol crap. I'm just happy to spend time with my family and friends. I'm happy that we're all healthy, and we get to see another year. And, I wish I didn't take people for granted the way I sometimes do. I need to change this.

But, most of all, I miss the people I've lost over the years, and it all comes back to me 'this time of of year'. There are two integral members of my family that have been gone for two years now. My Yia Yia and my Dad. Not a day goes by I don't think about either one of them, I still reel from my dad's death... but, each day I guess it gets a little easier, I find ways to deal with it.

I'm sure, like every year I will dream about them when I'm at my worst. Recently I dreamt that my Dad told me what heaven and hell were like. He looked so good in the dream. Healthy, skinny, how he was before he died. I can still see it in my mind, I woke up completely baffled as to how real it all felt. He was right there, I swear it.

I do believe loved ones that I've lost come back in mysterious ways. When someone I don't know is nice to me it could be them, when I suddenly think positively about a situation I know it's probably them. That little voice in the back of my head telling me to 'do the right thing' yeah, I know it's them.

I just wanted to write a short yet sweet post about how we should all take Thanksgiving more to heart than Xmas. Truly, be thankful for your health, the health of your family and friends, and whether you want to bite their heads off one day, or hug them into submission the next. They're HERE, with YOU, and that's all that really matters.

Be thankful for those you have in your life, we aren't promised anything, we have a short stay here, so I intend to make the most of it.

That's my 'New Year's Resolution'.

Almost Xmas....

Well, it's that time of year AGAIN. When people spend ridiculous amounts of money on gifts for their friends, loved ones, significant others, etc. Well, this year I only have to worry about spending it on my family which is always nice. I save money, and don't get to feel like kicking myself in the face after words. So, good for me.

I feel like the older I get, the Xmas magic has since left me. I'm no longer all that excited for it for opening gifts and that ol crap. I'm just happy to spend time with my family and friends. I'm happy that we're all healthy, and we get to see another year. And, I wish I didn't take people for granted the way I sometimes do. I need to change this.

But, most of all, I miss the people I've lost over the years, and it all comes back to me 'this time of of year'. There are two integral members of my family that have been gone for two years now. My Yia Yia and my Dad. Not a day goes by I don't think about either one of them, I still reel from my dad's death... but, each day I guess it gets a little easier, I find ways to deal with it.

I'm sure, like every year I will dream about them when I'm at my worst. Recently I dreamt that my Dad told me what heaven and hell were like. He looked so good in the dream. Healthy, skinny, how he was before he died. I can still see it in my mind, I woke up completely baffled as to how real it all felt. He was right there, I swear it.

I do believe loved ones that I've lost come back in mysterious ways. When someone I don't know is nice to me it could be them, when I suddenly think positively about a situation I know it's probably them. That little voice in the back of my head telling me to 'do the right thing' yeah, I know it's them.

I just wanted to write a short yet sweet post about how we should all take Thanksgiving more to heart than Xmas. Truly, be thankful for your health, the health of your family and friends, and whether you want to bite their heads off one day, or hug them into submission the next. They're HERE, with YOU, and that's all that really matters.

Be thankful for those you have in your life, we aren't promised anything, we have a short stay here, so I intend to make the most of it.

That's my 'New Year's Resolution'.

New Job/ New Outlook

I have a new job now at a pretty reputable company near my hometown. I will not disclose the name of this company, just in case they somehow link it to this website with my opinions, etc. It would be dangerous for customers to find me this way too. I had one customer ask for my last name today. How about no? I do not want to get that personal with any of them. I like this job so far. I did just start a few weeks ago, so of course, the newlywed phase will fade away as time goes on, but I am going to try and keep a positive outlook on this one. It's a bigger more professional company, and I must say it is refreshing to work around guys again. As much as I love hanging with my girls, let's face it... every woman I've encountered... including myself is super duper moody at times. I can't stand those qualities about myself let alone others. I don't like going from A-Z in the span of one day, but hell... it happens... and, I just try to get around it and leave as little destruction along my path as I possibly can. I am also enjoying being single. This truly is the first time I've been single and I haven't been 'seeing' anyone on the side while keeping it low profile and 'open'. It's rather nice to just concentrate on myself, my own wants and needs this time around. The only person I worry about keeping happy is myself... and you know what? It's right where I need to be right now. Perfecto. Halloween came and went. The 2nd anniversary of my dad's death came and went too. It's truly amazing how quickly the years really do fly by once you're out of school. This Halloween was much better than last year's. I would still like to either go out and party and/or go to an actual house party for Halloween. I miss those, but whatever... it is what it is. My friend Tabitha and I went on a Ghost Tour around Chicago last night! It was far too cold, but still alot of fun. I had no idea the city of Chicago was surrounded by so much death and despair. You learn something new everyday. Very cool history lesson as well, I would definitely do it again. She and I rounded the night off with 5.00 shots of patron, they took us to a little bar called Vintage. I wish we could have made more bar stops, but alas... it was a week night.. and apparently the world of fun must come to an end at some point. Not sure I have too much else to say at the moment other than my mom had a great birthday as well! We got her a 3 month massage membership, and went out to an Uzbekistan restaurant for dinner. It's called Diora, and everyone.... look it up... and go. The food was to DIE for, and so were the desserts. That's all she wrote.... for now...

New Job/ New Outlook

I have a new job now at a pretty reputable company near my hometown. I will not disclose the name of this company, just in case they somehow link it to this website with my opinions, etc. It would be dangerous for customers to find me this way too. I had one customer ask for my last name today. How about no? I do not want to get that personal with any of them. I like this job so far. I did just start a few weeks ago, so of course, the newlywed phase will fade away as time goes on, but I am going to try and keep a positive outlook on this one. It's a bigger more professional company, and I must say it is refreshing to work around guys again. As much as I love hanging with my girls, let's face it... every woman I've encountered... including myself is super duper moody at times. I can't stand those qualities about myself let alone others. I don't like going from A-Z in the span of one day, but hell... it happens... and, I just try to get around it and leave as little destruction along my path as I possibly can. I am also enjoying being single. This truly is the first time I've been single and I haven't been 'seeing' anyone on the side while keeping it low profile and 'open'. It's rather nice to just concentrate on myself, my own wants and needs this time around. The only person I worry about keeping happy is myself... and you know what? It's right where I need to be right now. Perfecto. Halloween came and went. The 2nd anniversary of my dad's death came and went too. It's truly amazing how quickly the years really do fly by once you're out of school. This Halloween was much better than last year's. I would still like to either go out and party and/or go to an actual house party for Halloween. I miss those, but whatever... it is what it is. My friend Tabitha and I went on a Ghost Tour around Chicago last night! It was far too cold, but still alot of fun. I had no idea the city of Chicago was surrounded by so much death and despair. You learn something new everyday. Very cool history lesson as well, I would definitely do it again. She and I rounded the night off with 5.00 shots of patron, they took us to a little bar called Vintage. I wish we could have made more bar stops, but alas... it was a week night.. and apparently the world of fun must come to an end at some point. Not sure I have too much else to say at the moment other than my mom had a great birthday as well! We got her a 3 month massage membership, and went out to an Uzbekistan restaurant for dinner. It's called Diora, and everyone.... look it up... and go. The food was to DIE for, and so were the desserts. That's all she wrote.... for now...