The Job Market

I just want to say that the state of our economy in these recent years is pathetic. I have friends both with college degrees and without that have struggled non stop to find a job! Some have applied to any industry they see fit, even retail/ food service and didn't find anything. Others are pickier which probably doesn't help them any, and refuse to even attempt anything other than their 'chosen field' of expertise. It really makes me think. I understand an Associates, Bachelor's, Master's Ph.D, etc. are all great, wonderful accomplishments. And, those that have worked themselves to the bone to acheive them deserve awards in my mind. But, it is curious to me that some individuals that drop out of school make more money than myself and my fellow friends and family members ever will in our lifetimes. I think I know why they have become so successful. It doesn't have to do with your economic status at all. The rags to riches story can reign true for anyone. Especially in the entertainment industry. One of my favorite female rappers out there, Nicki Minaj had a less than humble upbringing and look where she's at now? Same for crazy Ke$ha. She grew up poor and barefoot with a single mother, and look at the success she has earned as well. What do these women have that I don't you ask. Well, it's really just one word. DRIVE. I believe that if you really, really, really, want something and are willing to put everything else on the line for it. No matter what it takes the rewards can and should be bountiful. Now, I on the other hand do not like being in the spotlight. I prefer the wallflower approach, and have remained in that set mindset for my entire life. Maybe it's time for me to change my tune, and try something different. Something crazy, something that could change everything. Every job that I have ever worked at, I knew deep down would never, ever, fulfill me. But, I would SETTLE. Because I'm afraid of FAILING. Well, 'imagine if you could not fail, what could you do?' the answer, plain and simple is ANYTHING. A few times in my life, when I had the drive that I have since lost, I actually accomplished my set goals at the time! For example, I played soccer all four years throughout high school. I was never the star player, never good enough to earn a full scholarship to college, but I trained with my Dad, trained with my sister, and a personal trainer (which my awesome daddy hired for my sister and I) and she and I both made travel teams! I played on the travel league for a little over a year, and it boosted my confidence on the field ten fold! I was in the best shape of my life at that time. To the surprise of both of my parents, I actually had 3 travel leagues ready to recruit me. They WANTED ME on their teams! I had the opportunity to decide which team I wanted to be on. I chose the right one for me, even though one team was higher in the ranks. I made the right decision. It was the best time in my life. My Dad was so proud that both of his daughters made it onto travel teams. My sister has always been more athletic than me, she had more of a natural talent on the field, whereas I had to work very hard to keep up with everyone else, but my hard work paid off. And, I still have the trophy to prove it. My travel team, girls far more talented than I, voted me, 'Most Improved Player'. I was ecstatic. Now, I look at myself and wonder, where did that girl go? Well, now she is a woman, who has been through alot in a very short span of time. And, instead of overcoming those obstacles, I allowed it to weigh me down. Now, I don't sit around all day moping around the house feeling sorry for myself, because that's disgusting and I know I'm stronger than that. But, I do allow things to hold me back. Like the guilt of moving away from my family. After my aunt moved in I feel like I owe it to my Mom to stay home and help take care of her. I feel that every time I even so much as talk about moving away, they become irritated with me and sensitive about the topic. I don't know why, but it makes me feel terrible every time. My level of success in this life, is definitely more attainable than what Nicki Minaj and Ke$ha have found in theirs. I simply want a job in the writing field. ANY writing field. I want my own apartment. I want my own dog. That's what I want, for now. Although, going off the beaten path has inspired me slightly in this last month of unemployment. I used to dream of acting. I do not want to be 'famous' though. I don't want the public or the paparazzi interfering with my personal life. I want to be known on talent alone. And yes, I do think it can be possible, if I had more DRIVE for it. Right now, I'm scared and I don't know why. I'm so used to rejection with my other jobs, why not audition for a horror movie? That's the preferred genre I would like get into. So, maybe if I can get a job for now, take acting classes, and then from there work my way up..... who knows. The world has endless possibilities. I just need to believe what I write, and actually DO IT. DRIVE, DRIVE DRIVE. My new mantra. DRIIIIIVE. That's all she wrote.

(My fave horror movie actress, the beautiful Danielle Harris)

(My fave MC)

(Crazy chica)

The Job Market

I just want to say that the state of our economy in these recent years is pathetic. I have friends both with college degrees and without that have struggled non stop to find a job! Some have applied to any industry they see fit, even retail/ food service and didn't find anything. Others are pickier which probably doesn't help them any, and refuse to even attempt anything other than their 'chosen field' of expertise. It really makes me think. I understand an Associates, Bachelor's, Master's Ph.D, etc. are all great, wonderful accomplishments. And, those that have worked themselves to the bone to acheive them deserve awards in my mind. But, it is curious to me that some individuals that drop out of school make more money than myself and my fellow friends and family members ever will in our lifetimes. I think I know why they have become so successful. It doesn't have to do with your economic status at all. The rags to riches story can reign true for anyone. Especially in the entertainment industry. One of my favorite female rappers out there, Nicki Minaj had a less than humble upbringing and look where she's at now? Same for crazy Ke$ha. She grew up poor and barefoot with a single mother, and look at the success she has earned as well. What do these women have that I don't you ask. Well, it's really just one word. DRIVE. I believe that if you really, really, really, want something and are willing to put everything else on the line for it. No matter what it takes the rewards can and should be bountiful. Now, I on the other hand do not like being in the spotlight. I prefer the wallflower approach, and have remained in that set mindset for my entire life. Maybe it's time for me to change my tune, and try something different. Something crazy, something that could change everything. Every job that I have ever worked at, I knew deep down would never, ever, fulfill me. But, I would SETTLE. Because I'm afraid of FAILING. Well, 'imagine if you could not fail, what could you do?' the answer, plain and simple is ANYTHING. A few times in my life, when I had the drive that I have since lost, I actually accomplished my set goals at the time! For example, I played soccer all four years throughout high school. I was never the star player, never good enough to earn a full scholarship to college, but I trained with my Dad, trained with my sister, and a personal trainer (which my awesome daddy hired for my sister and I) and she and I both made travel teams! I played on the travel league for a little over a year, and it boosted my confidence on the field ten fold! I was in the best shape of my life at that time. To the surprise of both of my parents, I actually had 3 travel leagues ready to recruit me. They WANTED ME on their teams! I had the opportunity to decide which team I wanted to be on. I chose the right one for me, even though one team was higher in the ranks. I made the right decision. It was the best time in my life. My Dad was so proud that both of his daughters made it onto travel teams. My sister has always been more athletic than me, she had more of a natural talent on the field, whereas I had to work very hard to keep up with everyone else, but my hard work paid off. And, I still have the trophy to prove it. My travel team, girls far more talented than I, voted me, 'Most Improved Player'. I was ecstatic. Now, I look at myself and wonder, where did that girl go? Well, now she is a woman, who has been through alot in a very short span of time. And, instead of overcoming those obstacles, I allowed it to weigh me down. Now, I don't sit around all day moping around the house feeling sorry for myself, because that's disgusting and I know I'm stronger than that. But, I do allow things to hold me back. Like the guilt of moving away from my family. After my aunt moved in I feel like I owe it to my Mom to stay home and help take care of her. I feel that every time I even so much as talk about moving away, they become irritated with me and sensitive about the topic. I don't know why, but it makes me feel terrible every time. My level of success in this life, is definitely more attainable than what Nicki Minaj and Ke$ha have found in theirs. I simply want a job in the writing field. ANY writing field. I want my own apartment. I want my own dog. That's what I want, for now. Although, going off the beaten path has inspired me slightly in this last month of unemployment. I used to dream of acting. I do not want to be 'famous' though. I don't want the public or the paparazzi interfering with my personal life. I want to be known on talent alone. And yes, I do think it can be possible, if I had more DRIVE for it. Right now, I'm scared and I don't know why. I'm so used to rejection with my other jobs, why not audition for a horror movie? That's the preferred genre I would like get into. So, maybe if I can get a job for now, take acting classes, and then from there work my way up..... who knows. The world has endless possibilities. I just need to believe what I write, and actually DO IT. DRIVE, DRIVE DRIVE. My new mantra. DRIIIIIVE. That's all she wrote.

(My fave horror movie actress, the beautiful Danielle Harris)

(My fave MC)

(Crazy chica)