Back from Paris :)

My wonderful familia in the Louvre. If you look in the background you can see the Victory Statue. Stunning, yes? :)

I just got back from Paris yesterday. It was a beautiful city. We saw the Louvre, Notre Dame, the Arc di Triomphe, walked along the Champs Elyesee, toured the Palace of Versailles, went atop the Eiffel Tower, and saw a rather adult oriented show at the real Moulin Rouge. Twas an amazing vacation overall, and a much needed one at that.

My family and I needed this, to get away from the house... to leave the memories behind for a little bit. Of course, the memories followed us, and it was hard for the first family vacation without my Dad around. I suppose this year will be a year filled of firsts like that. We just have to pull together, be strong, and move on like he would want us to. It's hard, and its only been a few months... I can see the long stretch of road ahead of me, but I am definitely trying.

I took various pictures which I don't really feeling like posting here... so, my readers.. you get this one. A bright photograph from the Louvre. One of the biggest museums I have ever had the pleasure to tour. There are over 30,000 exhibits of art in this museum. If someone wanted to try and go through all the rooms, they wouldn't be able to. Good luck with that!

Paris is a city filled of vintage buildings and shops that line the quaint cobblestone streets. The ever sexy language, (French) is most pleasing to the ears. Much like other romance languages, I wouldn't even care if someone swore at me in French, I would probably just drool on them anyway. I loved hearing our concierge direct us to restaurants and tour venues , the polite waiters that greeted us with a friendly 'Bonjour!'. It was all just so wonderful.

I want to go back. Then, I want to go to London, Italy, Greece, and Germany. I know one day I will make each of these countries. It will happen. As soon as I get a 'real' job, and some 'real' money stashed away.. I see these trips as becoming more of a reality than ever before. I also want to live in a European country for at least a year. I don't really see that happening to be honest, with everything that has happened in my life this year.. I'm not sure I want to stray too far from home just yet. But, when the time is right, it is a fun possibility to consider.

I'm not sure I have much else to report on. I am still on the job hunt. If I find anything of great awesomeness... it will definitely show up here.

My message to everyone is this.... live, travel, absorb, and most importantly record everything.

We out.

Back from Paris :)

My wonderful familia in the Louvre. If you look in the background you can see the Victory Statue. Stunning, yes? :)

I just got back from Paris yesterday. It was a beautiful city. We saw the Louvre, Notre Dame, the Arc di Triomphe, walked along the Champs Elyesee, toured the Palace of Versailles, went atop the Eiffel Tower, and saw a rather adult oriented show at the real Moulin Rouge. Twas an amazing vacation overall, and a much needed one at that.

My family and I needed this, to get away from the house... to leave the memories behind for a little bit. Of course, the memories followed us, and it was hard for the first family vacation without my Dad around. I suppose this year will be a year filled of firsts like that. We just have to pull together, be strong, and move on like he would want us to. It's hard, and its only been a few months... I can see the long stretch of road ahead of me, but I am definitely trying.

I took various pictures which I don't really feeling like posting here... so, my readers.. you get this one. A bright photograph from the Louvre. One of the biggest museums I have ever had the pleasure to tour. There are over 30,000 exhibits of art in this museum. If someone wanted to try and go through all the rooms, they wouldn't be able to. Good luck with that!

Paris is a city filled of vintage buildings and shops that line the quaint cobblestone streets. The ever sexy language, (French) is most pleasing to the ears. Much like other romance languages, I wouldn't even care if someone swore at me in French, I would probably just drool on them anyway. I loved hearing our concierge direct us to restaurants and tour venues , the polite waiters that greeted us with a friendly 'Bonjour!'. It was all just so wonderful.

I want to go back. Then, I want to go to London, Italy, Greece, and Germany. I know one day I will make each of these countries. It will happen. As soon as I get a 'real' job, and some 'real' money stashed away.. I see these trips as becoming more of a reality than ever before. I also want to live in a European country for at least a year. I don't really see that happening to be honest, with everything that has happened in my life this year.. I'm not sure I want to stray too far from home just yet. But, when the time is right, it is a fun possibility to consider.

I'm not sure I have much else to report on. I am still on the job hunt. If I find anything of great awesomeness... it will definitely show up here.

My message to everyone is this.... live, travel, absorb, and most importantly record everything.

We out.

Things and Even More Things

Well. For those of you that read my thoughts. I appreciate that you all do, trust me. I apologize if my site is acting peculiar lately. Apparently I have been 'link spammed' so whenever I try to log in.. it takes a few minutes and I have to fight with the cursor to get it in the right place before it takes me to another website. I complained to e blogger.. and sent them a little message.. so far no help. I think I will continue to complain until they fix my site... or else! Stupid spammers.. can't they find anything better to do with their measly lives????

This Saturday, the 20th.. my family and I are leaving for Paris, France. :D I couldn't be more excited. I have never been to Europe before. The trip is under sad pretense though because it was originally supposed to be an anniversary trip between my Mom and Dad. But then, life decided to shit on my face... my Dad passed away.. and my Mom is left with a trip by herself. She decided to take my sister and I with her. It's going to hurt being there without my Daddy, but I know he would still want us to have a good time. I know it. There will be plenty of pictures.. and a definite blog after that trip.

I am hoping for two interviews this week. I need change... and I need it now. I will go insane without it.

Other than that, I just need to get to packing... and getting healthier... cause my allergies/sinuses are bringing me down. I must be healthy for the city of love! <3

Have fun/safe spring breaks everyone.

We out.

Things and Even More Things

Well. For those of you that read my thoughts. I appreciate that you all do, trust me. I apologize if my site is acting peculiar lately. Apparently I have been 'link spammed' so whenever I try to log in.. it takes a few minutes and I have to fight with the cursor to get it in the right place before it takes me to another website. I complained to e blogger.. and sent them a little message.. so far no help. I think I will continue to complain until they fix my site... or else! Stupid spammers.. can't they find anything better to do with their measly lives????

This Saturday, the 20th.. my family and I are leaving for Paris, France. :D I couldn't be more excited. I have never been to Europe before. The trip is under sad pretense though because it was originally supposed to be an anniversary trip between my Mom and Dad. But then, life decided to shit on my face... my Dad passed away.. and my Mom is left with a trip by herself. She decided to take my sister and I with her. It's going to hurt being there without my Daddy, but I know he would still want us to have a good time. I know it. There will be plenty of pictures.. and a definite blog after that trip.

I am hoping for two interviews this week. I need change... and I need it now. I will go insane without it.

Other than that, I just need to get to packing... and getting healthier... cause my allergies/sinuses are bringing me down. I must be healthy for the city of love! <3

Have fun/safe spring breaks everyone.

We out.

Uncommon Truths

I once knew a girl
with the biggest eyes
she saw the world
and told no lies

life was a friend
nothing ever went wrong
she had nothing to fear
and no one to blame

this girl since grew up
and her eyes are still blue
they see more and know more
more of the truth

that life is not easy
the weak will not survive
in order to make it
we have to realize

you can wish in one hand
and shit in the other
and prayers are passed down
from your father and mother

they will go unanswered
because no one is there
we are all on our own

in this grand world out there
what God is this? you might ask yourself
this God is a chess player
you lay on his shelf

if he's out there and listening
he pretends not to hear
for he will not help you
my sweet, my dear

religion, the Bible, bullshit left aside
all that really matters
is what you hold dear

forget all else

sweet child

sweet dear

forget all else

do not pray around here
prayer is not needed
for the girl with blue eyes

all of that yes

within truth

are lies

Uncommon Truths

I once knew a girl
with the biggest eyes
she saw the world
and told no lies

life was a friend
nothing ever went wrong
she had nothing to fear
and no one to blame

this girl since grew up
and her eyes are still blue
they see more and know more
more of the truth

that life is not easy
the weak will not survive
in order to make it
we have to realize

you can wish in one hand
and shit in the other
and prayers are passed down
from your father and mother

they will go unanswered
because no one is there
we are all on our own

in this grand world out there
what God is this? you might ask yourself
this God is a chess player
you lay on his shelf

if he's out there and listening
he pretends not to hear
for he will not help you
my sweet, my dear

religion, the Bible, bullshit left aside
all that really matters
is what you hold dear

forget all else

sweet child

sweet dear

forget all else

do not pray around here
prayer is not needed
for the girl with blue eyes

all of that yes

within truth

are lies

The Bachelor

L-R Ali, Jake, and Vienna
















I simply have to comment on this hilarious 'reality' tv show. I love watching dating shows and I have no idea why. Maybe it's my sick sense of humor and how I secretly enjoy watching people make assholes of themselves. I don't know.

This last bachelor was a very attractive pilot named Jake. I must say, I even had a crush on the guy. I felt his personality was a little stiff, and he lacked any real sense of humor, but the women on the show didn't really seem to mind. Some of the ladies actually fell for him, while others saw it as a game. In my opinion, Jake's now 'fiance' the ever controversial Vienna, is the latter. She is a young, 23 year old girl, who admits to never having been in a real long term relationship, that doesn't factor into my opinion of her. What factors in, is that she was married for three days. Three days. Really? Obviously she enjoys taking risks, she is a competitor, and granted dating is all about competition. Women and men compete with one another over relationships and hook ups and what not all the time.

But, I think that when it comes to true love. The honest kind. There should be no competition whatsoever. Maybe my version of what love is doesn't even exist in this world I am trapped to live in. I want to believe it does. I want to believe that love just isn't about sex (although for the most part that certainly helps matters) I want to believe that love is a strong connection that you feel with another person. That no matter what they look like upon just waking up, or even dressed to the nines, at the end of the day, you are still in love with this person no matter what the circumstance. No matter how much weight they gain, or stretch marks, or any of that crap.

I think true love isn't glamorous and 'fun' all the time. True love is something two people have to work at everyday, but it doesn't feel like work. It just feels natural. I think the spark at the beginning of any/all relationships fades with time, the challenge is.. can the couple grow from this change into a deeper sense of emotion? Or just fall apart into superficiality? It all depends me thinks.

That's why these often entertaining dating shows are just that... entertainment. I don't understand how you can fall in love with someone in a few weeks.. let alone a few months. Try 9-12 months. That's how long it takes me. Of course, I am a very guarded person when it comes to handing out my heart. I don't take it lightly, or say I love you on a whim.

I have only been in two long term relationships in my short life. Both lasted over a year, and I can honestly say, it was love. I know that because of the pain and anguish after watching my heart break into teeny weeny little pieces. I am not ready for that kind of love right now. I am keeping my heart closed for good reason, which I am not about to go into here. All I know is, when I am good and ready, I will fall in love again. I will find someone that actually loves me back this time.

I'm just having fun for now. ;) Because that's what being young and 'shopping' around is all about. And, well... sexy times are fun too... bwhahaha. ;)

I guess in conclusion of this random post, as most of mine are, I do think Jake made a mistake in his decision. Not because I hate Vienna, I don't even know or care about the woman, I just feel she sees the entire show as a 'game'. Marriage and commitment, which is supposedly the goal of the show, has nothing to do with her attitude. She is looking at it wrong, and Jake is blinded by their sexual connection.

It will be interesting to see how Allie fairs. She is the next Bachelorette. :) I really admired her when she dumped Jake for her job. That was a huge risk. Of course she tried to plead with him later on to go back on the show, he of course said no. Which makes perfect sense to me. Why should she get special treatment after something like that? Although she later stated that she made a mistake in her decision, I still don't think so. I think sometimes its ok to use your head over your heart. I'm not saying to avoid love, or push it away, all I'm saying is.. with such an illogical emotion sometimes it pays to actually step back and think about the situation overall. Really weigh ones options, and then move forward from there.

That's all for now, folks.

The Bachelor

L-R Ali, Jake, and Vienna
















I simply have to comment on this hilarious 'reality' tv show. I love watching dating shows and I have no idea why. Maybe it's my sick sense of humor and how I secretly enjoy watching people make assholes of themselves. I don't know.

This last bachelor was a very attractive pilot named Jake. I must say, I even had a crush on the guy. I felt his personality was a little stiff, and he lacked any real sense of humor, but the women on the show didn't really seem to mind. Some of the ladies actually fell for him, while others saw it as a game. In my opinion, Jake's now 'fiance' the ever controversial Vienna, is the latter. She is a young, 23 year old girl, who admits to never having been in a real long term relationship, that doesn't factor into my opinion of her. What factors in, is that she was married for three days. Three days. Really? Obviously she enjoys taking risks, she is a competitor, and granted dating is all about competition. Women and men compete with one another over relationships and hook ups and what not all the time.

But, I think that when it comes to true love. The honest kind. There should be no competition whatsoever. Maybe my version of what love is doesn't even exist in this world I am trapped to live in. I want to believe it does. I want to believe that love just isn't about sex (although for the most part that certainly helps matters) I want to believe that love is a strong connection that you feel with another person. That no matter what they look like upon just waking up, or even dressed to the nines, at the end of the day, you are still in love with this person no matter what the circumstance. No matter how much weight they gain, or stretch marks, or any of that crap.

I think true love isn't glamorous and 'fun' all the time. True love is something two people have to work at everyday, but it doesn't feel like work. It just feels natural. I think the spark at the beginning of any/all relationships fades with time, the challenge is.. can the couple grow from this change into a deeper sense of emotion? Or just fall apart into superficiality? It all depends me thinks.

That's why these often entertaining dating shows are just that... entertainment. I don't understand how you can fall in love with someone in a few weeks.. let alone a few months. Try 9-12 months. That's how long it takes me. Of course, I am a very guarded person when it comes to handing out my heart. I don't take it lightly, or say I love you on a whim.

I have only been in two long term relationships in my short life. Both lasted over a year, and I can honestly say, it was love. I know that because of the pain and anguish after watching my heart break into teeny weeny little pieces. I am not ready for that kind of love right now. I am keeping my heart closed for good reason, which I am not about to go into here. All I know is, when I am good and ready, I will fall in love again. I will find someone that actually loves me back this time.

I'm just having fun for now. ;) Because that's what being young and 'shopping' around is all about. And, well... sexy times are fun too... bwhahaha. ;)

I guess in conclusion of this random post, as most of mine are, I do think Jake made a mistake in his decision. Not because I hate Vienna, I don't even know or care about the woman, I just feel she sees the entire show as a 'game'. Marriage and commitment, which is supposedly the goal of the show, has nothing to do with her attitude. She is looking at it wrong, and Jake is blinded by their sexual connection.

It will be interesting to see how Allie fairs. She is the next Bachelorette. :) I really admired her when she dumped Jake for her job. That was a huge risk. Of course she tried to plead with him later on to go back on the show, he of course said no. Which makes perfect sense to me. Why should she get special treatment after something like that? Although she later stated that she made a mistake in her decision, I still don't think so. I think sometimes its ok to use your head over your heart. I'm not saying to avoid love, or push it away, all I'm saying is.. with such an illogical emotion sometimes it pays to actually step back and think about the situation overall. Really weigh ones options, and then move forward from there.

That's all for now, folks.