Warm October

I am simply loving this warm front this fall. I hope it stays like this all year long. I do not long for winter. I do not long for the cold, harsh, wind that will freeze my cheeks and nose.. I do not long for sinus infections and depression and snow. I long for the hot, breezy, days like today. Days that make me actually feel thankful for the things and people I have in my life right now. Also, days like today.. just make me thankful to be alive. And lets face it folks, I am not as thankful for my life as I should be.

I am actually getting over a sinus infection as I type this. I was completely miserable last week.. and this weekend. I still woke up every day and went to work because let's face it, I need the money. I am still pretty nasal and tired, but I am not as achy as before. It's on its way out, just probably a few more days and I will be back to 100% again.

Dan brought me soup over the weekend. :D I thought that was such a sweet idea. I was not feeling well at all, and seeing him definitely made me feel better. Plus, the soup was quite tasty and it always does the body good. If I didn't say it enough before... Thank you again! :)

What else can I report upon? I saw my awesome ladies this weekend. Clarissa, Sara, and Emily. Sara and Emily both live out of state now, so anytime they are in town.. I tend to monopolize them... tell everyone else I am quite on the busy side. I have known these ladies for most of my life, and I plan on knowing them for the rest of it. That's why its wonderful to see them, even if its only for a few hours at the very least. Sara is engaged and planning out her lovely May wedding sometime in 2012 I want to say. Sometimes I forget, because I'm like that. I'm very excited to be a part of the wedding party.. and of course excited for her as well. I like seeing my friends happy, because in this life... every happiness no matter how small or how big counts for something.

I am a deli girl now. That's right, chuckle if you will. This college grad serves the masses with slices of tasty meat and cheese, cut and ground to your liking. So, stop by and visit me every once in awhile, familiar faces will probably make the day go by that much faster.

I also volunteer for The Buddy Foundation. I love it. :) I am currently working with the most adorable cats/kitties at this no kill animal shelter. I play with them, and socialize them so they interact better with humans, and have a better chance of going home with a nice family.
Here are my fave babies: pictured on top: Squash, then Maverick, and last, but certainly not least.. my little girl Simone. :) I love them all, and wish I could take them home with me. But, alas... I cannot. :(

Whenever I get my life together and move out of my childhood home, I will have pets. Probably dogs and cats. Hopefully.

I guess that's all I have to say for now. I work, I apply to jobs, I volunteer, and I spend time with my family, friends, and boyfriend who all mean so much to me. Life is getting better day by day. I don't know how I am going to handle the year anniversary of my Dad's death this month. But, we all know I'll probably blog about that experience later.

Right now, I'm trying to stay happy. A battle well worth fighting for.

Warm October

I am simply loving this warm front this fall. I hope it stays like this all year long. I do not long for winter. I do not long for the cold, harsh, wind that will freeze my cheeks and nose.. I do not long for sinus infections and depression and snow. I long for the hot, breezy, days like today. Days that make me actually feel thankful for the things and people I have in my life right now. Also, days like today.. just make me thankful to be alive. And lets face it folks, I am not as thankful for my life as I should be.

I am actually getting over a sinus infection as I type this. I was completely miserable last week.. and this weekend. I still woke up every day and went to work because let's face it, I need the money. I am still pretty nasal and tired, but I am not as achy as before. It's on its way out, just probably a few more days and I will be back to 100% again.

Dan brought me soup over the weekend. :D I thought that was such a sweet idea. I was not feeling well at all, and seeing him definitely made me feel better. Plus, the soup was quite tasty and it always does the body good. If I didn't say it enough before... Thank you again! :)

What else can I report upon? I saw my awesome ladies this weekend. Clarissa, Sara, and Emily. Sara and Emily both live out of state now, so anytime they are in town.. I tend to monopolize them... tell everyone else I am quite on the busy side. I have known these ladies for most of my life, and I plan on knowing them for the rest of it. That's why its wonderful to see them, even if its only for a few hours at the very least. Sara is engaged and planning out her lovely May wedding sometime in 2012 I want to say. Sometimes I forget, because I'm like that. I'm very excited to be a part of the wedding party.. and of course excited for her as well. I like seeing my friends happy, because in this life... every happiness no matter how small or how big counts for something.

I am a deli girl now. That's right, chuckle if you will. This college grad serves the masses with slices of tasty meat and cheese, cut and ground to your liking. So, stop by and visit me every once in awhile, familiar faces will probably make the day go by that much faster.

I also volunteer for The Buddy Foundation. I love it. :) I am currently working with the most adorable cats/kitties at this no kill animal shelter. I play with them, and socialize them so they interact better with humans, and have a better chance of going home with a nice family.
Here are my fave babies: pictured on top: Squash, then Maverick, and last, but certainly not least.. my little girl Simone. :) I love them all, and wish I could take them home with me. But, alas... I cannot. :(

Whenever I get my life together and move out of my childhood home, I will have pets. Probably dogs and cats. Hopefully.

I guess that's all I have to say for now. I work, I apply to jobs, I volunteer, and I spend time with my family, friends, and boyfriend who all mean so much to me. Life is getting better day by day. I don't know how I am going to handle the year anniversary of my Dad's death this month. But, we all know I'll probably blog about that experience later.

Right now, I'm trying to stay happy. A battle well worth fighting for.

Alas.. knowledge really is power

Ok. After many years of suffering with some strange and rather embarrassing syndromes that my body chooses to torture me with. I have discovered something so radical, so insane, so unpredictable.. that somehow it all makes sense! When I was about 14 years old, I was diagnosed with Raynaud's Syndrome a very irritating vascular condition that makes winters especially hellish for me. My hands and feet will freeze randomly, sometimes for no reason at all. There are moments when I lose all feeling in all, or some of these extremities.. it often feels like pins and needles when the blood finally does rush back. Then, they swell and hurt. So, it's a lose lose situation either way you look at it. It sucks.

Today, while researching ways to prevent the symptoms, and find ways to make it less painful, I read an article that mentioned that individuals who suffer from Raynaud's Syndrome can also develop hyperhidrosis!!! This news excites me! Hyperhidrosis is a humiliating disease that makes me want to draw away from people just to protect them from pure disgustiness. I can make fun of it around my family, friends, and Dan( thanks for putting up with it, hun :-*) but around colleagues and those I interview with... it is beyond humiliating. It is borderline depressing. Just imagine.. you are already nervous for an interview... and both of your hands start to sweat profusely... I'm not talking a little sweat.. I'm talking the same wetness you experience after dipping your hands in water... but, it doesn't dry, it stays wet. You can wipe your hands as many times as you want, but they still stay disgusting. Now, you have to shake someone's hand. No one deserves to suffer that.

I have been debating the botox injections to the hands and feet to lessen the sweat. I think you go in once a month or something like that. Once I am on my own insurance, I intend to pay for it in full. Because I can't live like this anymore. My second option is, surgery. They make laser incisions in the thoracic area of the body... to reach the glands inbetween the rib cages. It sounds painful, but if the botox injections don't work.... then, I will save up for that as my final resort.

I am thankful that people who care about me, don't make me feel like a freak with these diseases. :) They make me feel pretty bad about myself sometimes.

Here are links with more info: Raynaud's Syndrome and Hyperhidrosis.

Alas.. knowledge really is power

Ok. After many years of suffering with some strange and rather embarrassing syndromes that my body chooses to torture me with. I have discovered something so radical, so insane, so unpredictable.. that somehow it all makes sense! When I was about 14 years old, I was diagnosed with Raynaud's Syndrome a very irritating vascular condition that makes winters especially hellish for me. My hands and feet will freeze randomly, sometimes for no reason at all. There are moments when I lose all feeling in all, or some of these extremities.. it often feels like pins and needles when the blood finally does rush back. Then, they swell and hurt. So, it's a lose lose situation either way you look at it. It sucks.

Today, while researching ways to prevent the symptoms, and find ways to make it less painful, I read an article that mentioned that individuals who suffer from Raynaud's Syndrome can also develop hyperhidrosis!!! This news excites me! Hyperhidrosis is a humiliating disease that makes me want to draw away from people just to protect them from pure disgustiness. I can make fun of it around my family, friends, and Dan( thanks for putting up with it, hun :-*) but around colleagues and those I interview with... it is beyond humiliating. It is borderline depressing. Just imagine.. you are already nervous for an interview... and both of your hands start to sweat profusely... I'm not talking a little sweat.. I'm talking the same wetness you experience after dipping your hands in water... but, it doesn't dry, it stays wet. You can wipe your hands as many times as you want, but they still stay disgusting. Now, you have to shake someone's hand. No one deserves to suffer that.

I have been debating the botox injections to the hands and feet to lessen the sweat. I think you go in once a month or something like that. Once I am on my own insurance, I intend to pay for it in full. Because I can't live like this anymore. My second option is, surgery. They make laser incisions in the thoracic area of the body... to reach the glands inbetween the rib cages. It sounds painful, but if the botox injections don't work.... then, I will save up for that as my final resort.

I am thankful that people who care about me, don't make me feel like a freak with these diseases. :) They make me feel pretty bad about myself sometimes.

Here are links with more info: Raynaud's Syndrome and Hyperhidrosis.

Thou Must Rip It

And, Rip it gooood! :)

The Farting Preacher - These bloopers are hilarious

I am in a silly mood tonight. Enjoy. :D

Thou Must Rip It

And, Rip it gooood! :)

The Farting Preacher - These bloopers are hilarious

I am in a silly mood tonight. Enjoy. :D

To Sleep Perchance to Dream...

Fall has definitely arrived. Today, is one of those super gloomy, dark days, when the minute you wake up it still looks like night time outside. I just want to curl back up underneath my tight warm blankets and go straight back to sleep. Forget about the world, forget about responsibility, and dream, dream, dream, some more.

My dreams have been nightmarish in quality lately. I know not why. Although, I did dream about my Dad last night, and then woke up in a very depressed state of mind. In this dream, he apologized for not being around anymore. I was trying to explain to him, that his death wasn't his fault. And, it isn't. I think that 'life happens when you are busy making other plans'. Maybe that quote should read 'death happens when you are busy making other plans' I like the way that one sounds better. Added morbidity.

Either way. I told him that we all love him, and we miss him everyday. He said it upsets him to see us all in so much pain. I told him, because we are part of the living world.. it's just how we deal with grief. It's a natural process and if anything a healthy one at that. You can't keep feelings like that bottled up inside forever.

I don't know how the dream ended, and I don't remember. Alls I can recall is waking up feeling like I usually feel after dreams like that... a strong sense of bittersweetness. More of the bitter... less on the sweet.

I have a job interview on Monday. I really hope I get it because money is getting tight, and I want to maintain some semblance of independence in my 'child like' life. I am going to put my game face on.. not that I haven't before.. and really just sell that shit. Sell myself. In a non whoring fashion of course.

I can't wait for Halloween this year. I am so excited. I have a costume ready and everything. I want to go to a haunted house, I want to watch scary movies, my boyfriend and I are going to summon Satan. That's right.. I said it... hahaha. Overall, it will be a blast.. and it's my favorite holiday of the year.

Peace out for now.