Be Running Up That Hill

This is my favorite song right now. By Placebo. It is in the trailer for Daybreakers, although I must say the song far outweighs the film.

Here are the lyrics.

It doesn't hurt me.
You wanna feel how it feels?
You wanna know, know that it doesn't hurt me?
You wanna hear about the deal I'm making?
You *be running up that hill*
You and me *be running up that hill*

And if I only could,
Make a deal with God,
And get him to swap our places,
Be running up that road,
Be running up that hill,
Be running up that building.
If I only could, oh...

You don't want to hurt me,
But see how deep the bullet lies.
Unaware that I'm tearing you asunder.
There is thunder in our hearts, baby.
So much hate for the ones we love?
Tell me, we both matter, don't we?

You, *be running up that hill*
You and me, *be running up that hill*
You and me won't be unhappy.

And if I only could,
Make a deal with God,
And get him to swap our places,
Be running up that road,
Be running up that hill,
Be running up that building,
If I only could, oh...

'C'mon, baby, c'mon, c'mon, darling,
Let me steal this moment from you now.
C'mon, angel, c'mon, c'mon, darling,
Let's exchange the experience, oh...'

And if I only could,
Make a deal with God,
And get him to swap our places,
Be running up that road,
Be running up that hill,
With no problems. x2

'If I only could, be running up that hill.' x7

Be Running Up That Hill

This is my favorite song right now. By Placebo. It is in the trailer for Daybreakers, although I must say the song far outweighs the film.

Here are the lyrics.

It doesn't hurt me.
You wanna feel how it feels?
You wanna know, know that it doesn't hurt me?
You wanna hear about the deal I'm making?
You *be running up that hill*
You and me *be running up that hill*

And if I only could,
Make a deal with God,
And get him to swap our places,
Be running up that road,
Be running up that hill,
Be running up that building.
If I only could, oh...

You don't want to hurt me,
But see how deep the bullet lies.
Unaware that I'm tearing you asunder.
There is thunder in our hearts, baby.
So much hate for the ones we love?
Tell me, we both matter, don't we?

You, *be running up that hill*
You and me, *be running up that hill*
You and me won't be unhappy.

And if I only could,
Make a deal with God,
And get him to swap our places,
Be running up that road,
Be running up that hill,
Be running up that building,
If I only could, oh...

'C'mon, baby, c'mon, c'mon, darling,
Let me steal this moment from you now.
C'mon, angel, c'mon, c'mon, darling,
Let's exchange the experience, oh...'

And if I only could,
Make a deal with God,
And get him to swap our places,
Be running up that road,
Be running up that hill,
With no problems. x2

'If I only could, be running up that hill.' x7

After Midnight Ponderings...

We Can All Help Them.....
I ponder why things happen the way they do. Does everything really happen for a reason? I honestly don't think so. I just think things happen because they happen. Like that one quote, life happens while you're busy making other plans. I completely agree with that. We can't predict our deaths. And, I think fate is a silly concept. If you are in the right place at the right time, and area in your life and you just happen to 'meet that special someone' it's all chance really.

Although, sometimes I think... if I didn't go to that party... I would never have met him, or done this, or felt that way. If I was somewhere else instead... true, my life would have indeed been different. By how much though, I'll never really know.

Besides all that crap, I've been thinking alot about the victims in Haiti, and just how awful the entire situation is becoming. I already contributed $10 to the American Red Cross via text messaging. If anyone that reads this wants to do the same.. simply text HAITI to 90999. You will get a confirmation text that you reply yes to.. then, it charges it to your phone bill. If you don't believe the number is legit, research it online... because it is. I am thinking of sending another $10 out this weekend or something. It won't even help them, but I'm trying. I'm also thinking about paying for a tent.. this option is through facebook and I think it's a little over $60. Chump change for those of us with part time jobs, or parents that still care enough to help out a little. I can't imagine what the poor families, the children, everyone.. I can't imagine how they feel over there. So much loss and devastation, it's so sad.

I find it funny that people often ask themselves where God is during all of this. What is he supposed to do? Reach down his mighty hand and take everything back? C'mon now. I must be agnostic or something.. because whatever I believe... whatever it is.. doesn't involve itself in our daily lives.... ever. That means prayer, hope, and crying to something that doesn't want to bother with you, isn't going to help your situation any. If there is a grand spirit out there after all, I believe he will help those who help themselves. And, I'm done with that topic.. so I don't offend anyone.

Still on the job hunt, looking for another part time.. or full time. I would love to quit the job I have. I just feel like I am drowning in my life... if that makes any sense. On a positive note, I am making friends with my co workers so it's less awkward there. We even socialize after work! OH MY!

Still single and honestly loving it. I see all of my friends at work dealing with ridiculous relationship drama, which sadly just comes with the territory anyway. Debating should they break up, shouldn't they break up? I'm over that debate. If I am attracted to someone they will know it. Cause I show it. Dating is highly overrated, I prefer just hanging out with someone and getting to know them that way, instead of having an awkward dinner conversation. Just saying.

We out for now.

After Midnight Ponderings...

We Can All Help Them.....
I ponder why things happen the way they do. Does everything really happen for a reason? I honestly don't think so. I just think things happen because they happen. Like that one quote, life happens while you're busy making other plans. I completely agree with that. We can't predict our deaths. And, I think fate is a silly concept. If you are in the right place at the right time, and area in your life and you just happen to 'meet that special someone' it's all chance really.

Although, sometimes I think... if I didn't go to that party... I would never have met him, or done this, or felt that way. If I was somewhere else instead... true, my life would have indeed been different. By how much though, I'll never really know.

Besides all that crap, I've been thinking alot about the victims in Haiti, and just how awful the entire situation is becoming. I already contributed $10 to the American Red Cross via text messaging. If anyone that reads this wants to do the same.. simply text HAITI to 90999. You will get a confirmation text that you reply yes to.. then, it charges it to your phone bill. If you don't believe the number is legit, research it online... because it is. I am thinking of sending another $10 out this weekend or something. It won't even help them, but I'm trying. I'm also thinking about paying for a tent.. this option is through facebook and I think it's a little over $60. Chump change for those of us with part time jobs, or parents that still care enough to help out a little. I can't imagine what the poor families, the children, everyone.. I can't imagine how they feel over there. So much loss and devastation, it's so sad.

I find it funny that people often ask themselves where God is during all of this. What is he supposed to do? Reach down his mighty hand and take everything back? C'mon now. I must be agnostic or something.. because whatever I believe... whatever it is.. doesn't involve itself in our daily lives.... ever. That means prayer, hope, and crying to something that doesn't want to bother with you, isn't going to help your situation any. If there is a grand spirit out there after all, I believe he will help those who help themselves. And, I'm done with that topic.. so I don't offend anyone.

Still on the job hunt, looking for another part time.. or full time. I would love to quit the job I have. I just feel like I am drowning in my life... if that makes any sense. On a positive note, I am making friends with my co workers so it's less awkward there. We even socialize after work! OH MY!

Still single and honestly loving it. I see all of my friends at work dealing with ridiculous relationship drama, which sadly just comes with the territory anyway. Debating should they break up, shouldn't they break up? I'm over that debate. If I am attracted to someone they will know it. Cause I show it. Dating is highly overrated, I prefer just hanging out with someone and getting to know them that way, instead of having an awkward dinner conversation. Just saying.

We out for now.

Bye bye 2009

Adios 2009, you won't be missed.
I can honestly say you are possibly the worst year in my entire life.. and I would love nothing more than to erase you completely from my memory. Since I cannot do that, I will have to cope with your shitastic ways, and hopefully come out with my head above the turbulent waters.

I have lost so much this year, it is ridiculous. My Yia Yia in July, my Daddy in October, I'm done with you death. Go pick on someone your own size. Leave me, and my family the hell alone. I have suffered much, and I will probably suffer every day of my life... over this crap.... people tell me that it will make me stronger... I really hope they are right, because sometimes I don't feel very strong at all.

This year has brought me nothing but pain, grief, and low self worth. The lack of a 'real' job, that will actually lead me somewhere in this life has to do with the latter.

Instead of more bitching... I am going to make a list of resolutions. I am going to follow this list of resolutions, and it will be a better year. Damnit.

Here we go:
1. clean my room
2. clean the basement
3. apply to jobs on a frequent basis
4. workout more (let's face it, my muscles need it)
5. do not be afraid of new things
6. think positively (this one is going to be hard)
7. be a better person
8. shower more
9. eat greens
10. be myself.. forever and for always
11. date more, I'm young and I'm allowed to have fun, with more than one guy at a time (like that will ever happen)

I really don't have anything else to say.

So... HAPPY 2010 EVERYBODY! I hope this new year finds you well. Health, happiness, sexy times ( a winky wink;) I know I miss that.....

Peace.

Bye bye 2009

Adios 2009, you won't be missed.
I can honestly say you are possibly the worst year in my entire life.. and I would love nothing more than to erase you completely from my memory. Since I cannot do that, I will have to cope with your shitastic ways, and hopefully come out with my head above the turbulent waters.

I have lost so much this year, it is ridiculous. My Yia Yia in July, my Daddy in October, I'm done with you death. Go pick on someone your own size. Leave me, and my family the hell alone. I have suffered much, and I will probably suffer every day of my life... over this crap.... people tell me that it will make me stronger... I really hope they are right, because sometimes I don't feel very strong at all.

This year has brought me nothing but pain, grief, and low self worth. The lack of a 'real' job, that will actually lead me somewhere in this life has to do with the latter.

Instead of more bitching... I am going to make a list of resolutions. I am going to follow this list of resolutions, and it will be a better year. Damnit.

Here we go:
1. clean my room
2. clean the basement
3. apply to jobs on a frequent basis
4. workout more (let's face it, my muscles need it)
5. do not be afraid of new things
6. think positively (this one is going to be hard)
7. be a better person
8. shower more
9. eat greens
10. be myself.. forever and for always
11. date more, I'm young and I'm allowed to have fun, with more than one guy at a time (like that will ever happen)

I really don't have anything else to say.

So... HAPPY 2010 EVERYBODY! I hope this new year finds you well. Health, happiness, sexy times ( a winky wink;) I know I miss that.....

Peace.

Merry Christmas Daddy

Happy Holidays everyone.
Here's a little ditty by yours truly. It isn't the greatest... so yeah.

We used to play catch and soccer too
You taught me how to be strong
And I taught you...
How to stay young
Hip and 'with it'

We were a team of goofballs you and I
Always laughing
Rarely you made me cry
You were a great listener
Arms always open for a hug

Never hesitant
Never compromising
Just how much you loved
Your Family

I'll try to keep my 'chin up'
But it will never be easy
I will never be the same

I love you and I miss you, Dad
I hope one day
We meet again