Fall is here

(my mom's tasty dessert)
( the stunning city at night. They wouldn't let you stand near the glass and take photos, sadly)
(my wonderful family at dinner. :) As usual, I have no idea what I am laughing at in this picture... I think a table near us said something funny...)

Well. Last weekend was very bittersweet on all accounts. My family and I visited the cemetery and each of us placed a rose on my dad's headstone. I was ever so thankful I took off work that day. There is no way I would have been up for cutting meat and cheese for complete strangers. I just wanted to be left alone. I wanted to be left to mourn, at least for a little while, until the pain became too strong and I bury it... like I do everything else.

That evening though, definitely got better. We took my Mom to The Signature Room in downtown Chicago. She had been there before, but my sister, aunt, and myself haven't. It was a beautiful restaurant. Gorgeous view of the city at night. Literally the lights sparkled like diamonds... littering the sky with effervescent beauty. I have never seen anything so wonderful in all my life. The food was exquisite. I basically snarfed down my pork tenderloin wrapped in tasty, tasty, bacon. Mmmmm. Sadly we had to celebrate my mom's birthday a day early because I had to close the day of her birthday at Mariano's. I figured if I took two days off that wouldn't make me look very good. I wanted to, but went against it. Then, later that evening I hung out with Dan. :D And, he made me feel better by being his awesome encouraging self and giving me lots of hugs. Which is just what I needed that night. :D Thank you hun.

The following day, all halo's eve.. I was beyond pumped to wear my sexy nun outfit and go out for a night on the town with my boyfriend and a couple of friends. Well, my plans were completely ruined. All due to poor planning on my part and to be quite honest... work was another major culprit. Because many people make up excuses to not close at the deli, the few hard workers (like myself) who actually need the money are forced to stay and help out. I had to stay a little later that night because people started leaving to go out for Halloween. That really sucked. I bought a birthday cake for my mom, which she loved... it was very yummy by the way.... that happened later than expected.. I got to Dan's place later than expected, another unexpected incident occurred that was unexpected... and then my friends were too far away for us to even attempt meeting up with them. We were both so pissed that Halloween was ruined. :( We stayed in played some video games and then hit the sack. Not how we imagined it, but its how life goes I suppose. Sigh.

On a different note, I have been working two jobs as of late.. I don't know if I mentioned that recently in my last post. But, I really like being a part of State Farm. I think I can learn alot from my boss, coworkers, and the company in general. The skills I will obtain with this position will probably help me out with other aspects in real life as well. The atmosphere is a very professional and comfortable one. For once, I actually feel respected and needed in a position. I feel like my input actually matters and I'm not just a 'body' occupying space anymore. It's a very nice feeling. Soon, I will move up to full time, and I can't wait to see what will happen from there. :D

My body is sore tonight. Sore from the slicers, and my feet ache from being on my feet at the deli. Working with food is certainly a hassle, but I have to do what I have to do, right? Just gotta suck it up and move on. With either aspirin or wine. Don't worry, I don't mix the two.


Now, for some photos I will randomly upload here. Enjoy... and, I hope everyone had a lovely Halloween.

Fall is here

(my mom's tasty dessert)
( the stunning city at night. They wouldn't let you stand near the glass and take photos, sadly)
(my wonderful family at dinner. :) As usual, I have no idea what I am laughing at in this picture... I think a table near us said something funny...)

Well. Last weekend was very bittersweet on all accounts. My family and I visited the cemetery and each of us placed a rose on my dad's headstone. I was ever so thankful I took off work that day. There is no way I would have been up for cutting meat and cheese for complete strangers. I just wanted to be left alone. I wanted to be left to mourn, at least for a little while, until the pain became too strong and I bury it... like I do everything else.

That evening though, definitely got better. We took my Mom to The Signature Room in downtown Chicago. She had been there before, but my sister, aunt, and myself haven't. It was a beautiful restaurant. Gorgeous view of the city at night. Literally the lights sparkled like diamonds... littering the sky with effervescent beauty. I have never seen anything so wonderful in all my life. The food was exquisite. I basically snarfed down my pork tenderloin wrapped in tasty, tasty, bacon. Mmmmm. Sadly we had to celebrate my mom's birthday a day early because I had to close the day of her birthday at Mariano's. I figured if I took two days off that wouldn't make me look very good. I wanted to, but went against it. Then, later that evening I hung out with Dan. :D And, he made me feel better by being his awesome encouraging self and giving me lots of hugs. Which is just what I needed that night. :D Thank you hun.

The following day, all halo's eve.. I was beyond pumped to wear my sexy nun outfit and go out for a night on the town with my boyfriend and a couple of friends. Well, my plans were completely ruined. All due to poor planning on my part and to be quite honest... work was another major culprit. Because many people make up excuses to not close at the deli, the few hard workers (like myself) who actually need the money are forced to stay and help out. I had to stay a little later that night because people started leaving to go out for Halloween. That really sucked. I bought a birthday cake for my mom, which she loved... it was very yummy by the way.... that happened later than expected.. I got to Dan's place later than expected, another unexpected incident occurred that was unexpected... and then my friends were too far away for us to even attempt meeting up with them. We were both so pissed that Halloween was ruined. :( We stayed in played some video games and then hit the sack. Not how we imagined it, but its how life goes I suppose. Sigh.

On a different note, I have been working two jobs as of late.. I don't know if I mentioned that recently in my last post. But, I really like being a part of State Farm. I think I can learn alot from my boss, coworkers, and the company in general. The skills I will obtain with this position will probably help me out with other aspects in real life as well. The atmosphere is a very professional and comfortable one. For once, I actually feel respected and needed in a position. I feel like my input actually matters and I'm not just a 'body' occupying space anymore. It's a very nice feeling. Soon, I will move up to full time, and I can't wait to see what will happen from there. :D

My body is sore tonight. Sore from the slicers, and my feet ache from being on my feet at the deli. Working with food is certainly a hassle, but I have to do what I have to do, right? Just gotta suck it up and move on. With either aspirin or wine. Don't worry, I don't mix the two.


Now, for some photos I will randomly upload here. Enjoy... and, I hope everyone had a lovely Halloween.

Warm October

I am simply loving this warm front this fall. I hope it stays like this all year long. I do not long for winter. I do not long for the cold, harsh, wind that will freeze my cheeks and nose.. I do not long for sinus infections and depression and snow. I long for the hot, breezy, days like today. Days that make me actually feel thankful for the things and people I have in my life right now. Also, days like today.. just make me thankful to be alive. And lets face it folks, I am not as thankful for my life as I should be.

I am actually getting over a sinus infection as I type this. I was completely miserable last week.. and this weekend. I still woke up every day and went to work because let's face it, I need the money. I am still pretty nasal and tired, but I am not as achy as before. It's on its way out, just probably a few more days and I will be back to 100% again.

Dan brought me soup over the weekend. :D I thought that was such a sweet idea. I was not feeling well at all, and seeing him definitely made me feel better. Plus, the soup was quite tasty and it always does the body good. If I didn't say it enough before... Thank you again! :)

What else can I report upon? I saw my awesome ladies this weekend. Clarissa, Sara, and Emily. Sara and Emily both live out of state now, so anytime they are in town.. I tend to monopolize them... tell everyone else I am quite on the busy side. I have known these ladies for most of my life, and I plan on knowing them for the rest of it. That's why its wonderful to see them, even if its only for a few hours at the very least. Sara is engaged and planning out her lovely May wedding sometime in 2012 I want to say. Sometimes I forget, because I'm like that. I'm very excited to be a part of the wedding party.. and of course excited for her as well. I like seeing my friends happy, because in this life... every happiness no matter how small or how big counts for something.

I am a deli girl now. That's right, chuckle if you will. This college grad serves the masses with slices of tasty meat and cheese, cut and ground to your liking. So, stop by and visit me every once in awhile, familiar faces will probably make the day go by that much faster.

I also volunteer for The Buddy Foundation. I love it. :) I am currently working with the most adorable cats/kitties at this no kill animal shelter. I play with them, and socialize them so they interact better with humans, and have a better chance of going home with a nice family.
Here are my fave babies: pictured on top: Squash, then Maverick, and last, but certainly not least.. my little girl Simone. :) I love them all, and wish I could take them home with me. But, alas... I cannot. :(

Whenever I get my life together and move out of my childhood home, I will have pets. Probably dogs and cats. Hopefully.

I guess that's all I have to say for now. I work, I apply to jobs, I volunteer, and I spend time with my family, friends, and boyfriend who all mean so much to me. Life is getting better day by day. I don't know how I am going to handle the year anniversary of my Dad's death this month. But, we all know I'll probably blog about that experience later.

Right now, I'm trying to stay happy. A battle well worth fighting for.

Warm October

I am simply loving this warm front this fall. I hope it stays like this all year long. I do not long for winter. I do not long for the cold, harsh, wind that will freeze my cheeks and nose.. I do not long for sinus infections and depression and snow. I long for the hot, breezy, days like today. Days that make me actually feel thankful for the things and people I have in my life right now. Also, days like today.. just make me thankful to be alive. And lets face it folks, I am not as thankful for my life as I should be.

I am actually getting over a sinus infection as I type this. I was completely miserable last week.. and this weekend. I still woke up every day and went to work because let's face it, I need the money. I am still pretty nasal and tired, but I am not as achy as before. It's on its way out, just probably a few more days and I will be back to 100% again.

Dan brought me soup over the weekend. :D I thought that was such a sweet idea. I was not feeling well at all, and seeing him definitely made me feel better. Plus, the soup was quite tasty and it always does the body good. If I didn't say it enough before... Thank you again! :)

What else can I report upon? I saw my awesome ladies this weekend. Clarissa, Sara, and Emily. Sara and Emily both live out of state now, so anytime they are in town.. I tend to monopolize them... tell everyone else I am quite on the busy side. I have known these ladies for most of my life, and I plan on knowing them for the rest of it. That's why its wonderful to see them, even if its only for a few hours at the very least. Sara is engaged and planning out her lovely May wedding sometime in 2012 I want to say. Sometimes I forget, because I'm like that. I'm very excited to be a part of the wedding party.. and of course excited for her as well. I like seeing my friends happy, because in this life... every happiness no matter how small or how big counts for something.

I am a deli girl now. That's right, chuckle if you will. This college grad serves the masses with slices of tasty meat and cheese, cut and ground to your liking. So, stop by and visit me every once in awhile, familiar faces will probably make the day go by that much faster.

I also volunteer for The Buddy Foundation. I love it. :) I am currently working with the most adorable cats/kitties at this no kill animal shelter. I play with them, and socialize them so they interact better with humans, and have a better chance of going home with a nice family.
Here are my fave babies: pictured on top: Squash, then Maverick, and last, but certainly not least.. my little girl Simone. :) I love them all, and wish I could take them home with me. But, alas... I cannot. :(

Whenever I get my life together and move out of my childhood home, I will have pets. Probably dogs and cats. Hopefully.

I guess that's all I have to say for now. I work, I apply to jobs, I volunteer, and I spend time with my family, friends, and boyfriend who all mean so much to me. Life is getting better day by day. I don't know how I am going to handle the year anniversary of my Dad's death this month. But, we all know I'll probably blog about that experience later.

Right now, I'm trying to stay happy. A battle well worth fighting for.

Alas.. knowledge really is power

Ok. After many years of suffering with some strange and rather embarrassing syndromes that my body chooses to torture me with. I have discovered something so radical, so insane, so unpredictable.. that somehow it all makes sense! When I was about 14 years old, I was diagnosed with Raynaud's Syndrome a very irritating vascular condition that makes winters especially hellish for me. My hands and feet will freeze randomly, sometimes for no reason at all. There are moments when I lose all feeling in all, or some of these extremities.. it often feels like pins and needles when the blood finally does rush back. Then, they swell and hurt. So, it's a lose lose situation either way you look at it. It sucks.

Today, while researching ways to prevent the symptoms, and find ways to make it less painful, I read an article that mentioned that individuals who suffer from Raynaud's Syndrome can also develop hyperhidrosis!!! This news excites me! Hyperhidrosis is a humiliating disease that makes me want to draw away from people just to protect them from pure disgustiness. I can make fun of it around my family, friends, and Dan( thanks for putting up with it, hun :-*) but around colleagues and those I interview with... it is beyond humiliating. It is borderline depressing. Just imagine.. you are already nervous for an interview... and both of your hands start to sweat profusely... I'm not talking a little sweat.. I'm talking the same wetness you experience after dipping your hands in water... but, it doesn't dry, it stays wet. You can wipe your hands as many times as you want, but they still stay disgusting. Now, you have to shake someone's hand. No one deserves to suffer that.

I have been debating the botox injections to the hands and feet to lessen the sweat. I think you go in once a month or something like that. Once I am on my own insurance, I intend to pay for it in full. Because I can't live like this anymore. My second option is, surgery. They make laser incisions in the thoracic area of the body... to reach the glands inbetween the rib cages. It sounds painful, but if the botox injections don't work.... then, I will save up for that as my final resort.

I am thankful that people who care about me, don't make me feel like a freak with these diseases. :) They make me feel pretty bad about myself sometimes.

Here are links with more info: Raynaud's Syndrome and Hyperhidrosis.

Alas.. knowledge really is power

Ok. After many years of suffering with some strange and rather embarrassing syndromes that my body chooses to torture me with. I have discovered something so radical, so insane, so unpredictable.. that somehow it all makes sense! When I was about 14 years old, I was diagnosed with Raynaud's Syndrome a very irritating vascular condition that makes winters especially hellish for me. My hands and feet will freeze randomly, sometimes for no reason at all. There are moments when I lose all feeling in all, or some of these extremities.. it often feels like pins and needles when the blood finally does rush back. Then, they swell and hurt. So, it's a lose lose situation either way you look at it. It sucks.

Today, while researching ways to prevent the symptoms, and find ways to make it less painful, I read an article that mentioned that individuals who suffer from Raynaud's Syndrome can also develop hyperhidrosis!!! This news excites me! Hyperhidrosis is a humiliating disease that makes me want to draw away from people just to protect them from pure disgustiness. I can make fun of it around my family, friends, and Dan( thanks for putting up with it, hun :-*) but around colleagues and those I interview with... it is beyond humiliating. It is borderline depressing. Just imagine.. you are already nervous for an interview... and both of your hands start to sweat profusely... I'm not talking a little sweat.. I'm talking the same wetness you experience after dipping your hands in water... but, it doesn't dry, it stays wet. You can wipe your hands as many times as you want, but they still stay disgusting. Now, you have to shake someone's hand. No one deserves to suffer that.

I have been debating the botox injections to the hands and feet to lessen the sweat. I think you go in once a month or something like that. Once I am on my own insurance, I intend to pay for it in full. Because I can't live like this anymore. My second option is, surgery. They make laser incisions in the thoracic area of the body... to reach the glands inbetween the rib cages. It sounds painful, but if the botox injections don't work.... then, I will save up for that as my final resort.

I am thankful that people who care about me, don't make me feel like a freak with these diseases. :) They make me feel pretty bad about myself sometimes.

Here are links with more info: Raynaud's Syndrome and Hyperhidrosis.

Thou Must Rip It

And, Rip it gooood! :)

The Farting Preacher - These bloopers are hilarious

I am in a silly mood tonight. Enjoy. :D