And, Rip it gooood! :)
I am in a silly mood tonight. Enjoy. :D
Monday, September 20, 2010
Thursday, September 16, 2010
To Sleep Perchance to Dream...
Fall has definitely arrived. Today, is one of those super gloomy, dark days, when the minute you wake up it still looks like night time outside. I just want to curl back up underneath my tight warm blankets and go straight back to sleep. Forget about the world, forget about responsibility, and dream, dream, dream, some more.
My dreams have been nightmarish in quality lately. I know not why. Although, I did dream about my Dad last night, and then woke up in a very depressed state of mind. In this dream, he apologized for not being around anymore. I was trying to explain to him, that his death wasn't his fault. And, it isn't. I think that 'life happens when you are busy making other plans'. Maybe that quote should read 'death happens when you are busy making other plans' I like the way that one sounds better. Added morbidity.
Either way. I told him that we all love him, and we miss him everyday. He said it upsets him to see us all in so much pain. I told him, because we are part of the living world.. it's just how we deal with grief. It's a natural process and if anything a healthy one at that. You can't keep feelings like that bottled up inside forever.
I don't know how the dream ended, and I don't remember. Alls I can recall is waking up feeling like I usually feel after dreams like that... a strong sense of bittersweetness. More of the bitter... less on the sweet.
I have a job interview on Monday. I really hope I get it because money is getting tight, and I want to maintain some semblance of independence in my 'child like' life. I am going to put my game face on.. not that I haven't before.. and really just sell that shit. Sell myself. In a non whoring fashion of course.
I can't wait for Halloween this year. I am so excited. I have a costume ready and everything. I want to go to a haunted house, I want to watch scary movies, my boyfriend and I are going to summon Satan. That's right.. I said it... hahaha. Overall, it will be a blast.. and it's my favorite holiday of the year.
Peace out for now.
My dreams have been nightmarish in quality lately. I know not why. Although, I did dream about my Dad last night, and then woke up in a very depressed state of mind. In this dream, he apologized for not being around anymore. I was trying to explain to him, that his death wasn't his fault. And, it isn't. I think that 'life happens when you are busy making other plans'. Maybe that quote should read 'death happens when you are busy making other plans' I like the way that one sounds better. Added morbidity.
Either way. I told him that we all love him, and we miss him everyday. He said it upsets him to see us all in so much pain. I told him, because we are part of the living world.. it's just how we deal with grief. It's a natural process and if anything a healthy one at that. You can't keep feelings like that bottled up inside forever.
I don't know how the dream ended, and I don't remember. Alls I can recall is waking up feeling like I usually feel after dreams like that... a strong sense of bittersweetness. More of the bitter... less on the sweet.
I have a job interview on Monday. I really hope I get it because money is getting tight, and I want to maintain some semblance of independence in my 'child like' life. I am going to put my game face on.. not that I haven't before.. and really just sell that shit. Sell myself. In a non whoring fashion of course.
I can't wait for Halloween this year. I am so excited. I have a costume ready and everything. I want to go to a haunted house, I want to watch scary movies, my boyfriend and I are going to summon Satan. That's right.. I said it... hahaha. Overall, it will be a blast.. and it's my favorite holiday of the year.
Peace out for now.
To Sleep Perchance to Dream...
Fall has definitely arrived. Today, is one of those super gloomy, dark days, when the minute you wake up it still looks like night time outside. I just want to curl back up underneath my tight warm blankets and go straight back to sleep. Forget about the world, forget about responsibility, and dream, dream, dream, some more.
My dreams have been nightmarish in quality lately. I know not why. Although, I did dream about my Dad last night, and then woke up in a very depressed state of mind. In this dream, he apologized for not being around anymore. I was trying to explain to him, that his death wasn't his fault. And, it isn't. I think that 'life happens when you are busy making other plans'. Maybe that quote should read 'death happens when you are busy making other plans' I like the way that one sounds better. Added morbidity.
Either way. I told him that we all love him, and we miss him everyday. He said it upsets him to see us all in so much pain. I told him, because we are part of the living world.. it's just how we deal with grief. It's a natural process and if anything a healthy one at that. You can't keep feelings like that bottled up inside forever.
I don't know how the dream ended, and I don't remember. Alls I can recall is waking up feeling like I usually feel after dreams like that... a strong sense of bittersweetness. More of the bitter... less on the sweet.
I have a job interview on Monday. I really hope I get it because money is getting tight, and I want to maintain some semblance of independence in my 'child like' life. I am going to put my game face on.. not that I haven't before.. and really just sell that shit. Sell myself. In a non whoring fashion of course.
I can't wait for Halloween this year. I am so excited. I have a costume ready and everything. I want to go to a haunted house, I want to watch scary movies, my boyfriend and I are going to summon Satan. That's right.. I said it... hahaha. Overall, it will be a blast.. and it's my favorite holiday of the year.
Peace out for now.
My dreams have been nightmarish in quality lately. I know not why. Although, I did dream about my Dad last night, and then woke up in a very depressed state of mind. In this dream, he apologized for not being around anymore. I was trying to explain to him, that his death wasn't his fault. And, it isn't. I think that 'life happens when you are busy making other plans'. Maybe that quote should read 'death happens when you are busy making other plans' I like the way that one sounds better. Added morbidity.
Either way. I told him that we all love him, and we miss him everyday. He said it upsets him to see us all in so much pain. I told him, because we are part of the living world.. it's just how we deal with grief. It's a natural process and if anything a healthy one at that. You can't keep feelings like that bottled up inside forever.
I don't know how the dream ended, and I don't remember. Alls I can recall is waking up feeling like I usually feel after dreams like that... a strong sense of bittersweetness. More of the bitter... less on the sweet.
I have a job interview on Monday. I really hope I get it because money is getting tight, and I want to maintain some semblance of independence in my 'child like' life. I am going to put my game face on.. not that I haven't before.. and really just sell that shit. Sell myself. In a non whoring fashion of course.
I can't wait for Halloween this year. I am so excited. I have a costume ready and everything. I want to go to a haunted house, I want to watch scary movies, my boyfriend and I are going to summon Satan. That's right.. I said it... hahaha. Overall, it will be a blast.. and it's my favorite holiday of the year.
Peace out for now.
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
People Make Me Sick
So. I was browsing xanga recently and I found the most disturbing, vile, video I have ever encountered in my short life. I hope, nay.. I pray.. that the actual contents of this video are fake. I want to believe with all of my heart and soul, that people care more for living creatures than this young woman does.
Here is the synopsis of the video. A young girl (teenager) is throwing 7 wk old puppies into a river. The police are on the hunt for her. The only reason I am posting this note is because I hope someone knows this girl and is brave enough to turn her and the culprit that videotaped the entire ordeal into the police immediately. No one deserves to get away with something like this. NO ONE.
Here is the link to the xanga site with the video. WARNING: what you are about to see is graphic, vile, repulsive... etc. It makes me cry. If anyone knows who this girl is... turn them both in immediately. Do what is right.
Let's find these people and put them away forever.
Stuff like this makes me want to become an 'Animal Cop', but I am waaay too sensitive for that.
I'm done for now.
People Make Me Sick
So. I was browsing xanga recently and I found the most disturbing, vile, video I have ever encountered in my short life. I hope, nay.. I pray.. that the actual contents of this video are fake. I want to believe with all of my heart and soul, that people care more for living creatures than this young woman does.
Here is the synopsis of the video. A young girl (teenager) is throwing 7 wk old puppies into a river. The police are on the hunt for her. The only reason I am posting this note is because I hope someone knows this girl and is brave enough to turn her and the culprit that videotaped the entire ordeal into the police immediately. No one deserves to get away with something like this. NO ONE.
Here is the link to the xanga site with the video. WARNING: what you are about to see is graphic, vile, repulsive... etc. It makes me cry. If anyone knows who this girl is... turn them both in immediately. Do what is right.
Let's find these people and put them away forever.
Stuff like this makes me want to become an 'Animal Cop', but I am waaay too sensitive for that.
I'm done for now.
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Estoy pensando en ti
Estoy pensando en ti! - that goes to someone that I like very much! ;) If you read this, let's see if you can translate it! Hehehe.
On to serious things. Today did not start out as a happy day. I wish it did, but it didn't. The events that occurred today made me want to rethink a few things with the goals I have set for myself in this life. Once upon a time, I wanted to move south. I hate winter with the passion of Satan's flaming farts... more than anyone will really understand. I have always loved beaches, the ocean, and palm trees. But, all that changed... today.
Now, I want to stay here for as long as I can. Not necessarily in my childhood home, but I wouldn't mind staying here for another 8-12 months.. just to save money... and make sure everything/everyone is ok. There are definite reasons for that. I have been debating the idea of working from home... it might be kinda fun, and then again it might not. Maybe I could bake cakes or something. ;) And, then drive to events and deliver them to people.
That would actually be really fun.
I want to bake cakes or become an extra in a movie. I think all of that would be pretty grand.
Hmmm sugar comas... delicious.
Here is an awesome video my boyfriend posted on my facebook wall.. I love it.. and want to share it with the world. Hahaha. Enjoy snitches!
On to serious things. Today did not start out as a happy day. I wish it did, but it didn't. The events that occurred today made me want to rethink a few things with the goals I have set for myself in this life. Once upon a time, I wanted to move south. I hate winter with the passion of Satan's flaming farts... more than anyone will really understand. I have always loved beaches, the ocean, and palm trees. But, all that changed... today.
Now, I want to stay here for as long as I can. Not necessarily in my childhood home, but I wouldn't mind staying here for another 8-12 months.. just to save money... and make sure everything/everyone is ok. There are definite reasons for that. I have been debating the idea of working from home... it might be kinda fun, and then again it might not. Maybe I could bake cakes or something. ;) And, then drive to events and deliver them to people.
That would actually be really fun.
I want to bake cakes or become an extra in a movie. I think all of that would be pretty grand.
Hmmm sugar comas... delicious.
Here is an awesome video my boyfriend posted on my facebook wall.. I love it.. and want to share it with the world. Hahaha. Enjoy snitches!
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