It's been awhile. I start almost every blog with the same sentence, so deal with it. :) Before I begin on anything, I kept a promise or basically said I would write about this particular topic to a few friends, so now I am going to do it. I am going to bash 50 Shades of Grey.
Have you read the trilogy? Have you fully absorbed the underlying message this hodge podge of crap is trying to convey to female readers? Well, let me entertain you. I read the trilogy and laughed throughout the entire thing. This book is sad and creepy. My boyfriend called it 'mommy porn' which almost made me puke in my mouth. Do you want to imagine that? No, no I didn't think so. What in the world is going through mother's minds throughout the world if they deem these disgusting novels as 'fun' or ewww... 'romantic'?
My theory is simply this. After awhile, marriages must reach a 'boring' stage, guess what? That's called real life. Get used to it. Apparently, this author wants to 'spice up' the sex lives of these deprived mothers and housewives everywhere. To each his own on that front. But ask yourself this, if you were a mother (I am not ready to be one for quite some time yet) or if you ARE a mother, would you allow your pre-teen daughter to read these books? My answer? NO. I would never want my future-somewhere-down-the-road-daughter to EVER think it is ok for a man to use objects or his hands on her for HIS pleasure.
S&M is a culture unto itself that I personally know nothing about. For members of this culture, if that is what they choose to do to one another and it works in their relationships, then that's fine. But, for a young impressionable girl to start reading books like this.. a girl that may not be sexually active yet, and doesn't quite know her own sexual identity-who knows the damage that could do. Women should never be seen as objects both in and outside of relationships. I have been in situations where I have been treated with 0 respect, and I will never allow myself to be treated that way again. The things I was told, would make you roll your eyes at me and ask 'why did you allow that to happen?' Or, better yet... 'why did you allow yourself to be treated that way?'
Because when I was younger, I didn't know any better. And, I will tell you this- I have encountered folks that closely resemble Christian Grey, and that is not a compliment to them or to anyone else. What Christian Grey represents is CONTROL. Sheer emotional CONTROL over another human being. You don't have to use your hands to control someone else, emotional manipulation and verbal abuse are often key. In this trilogy, I would say EMOTIONAL MANIPULATION was seen left and right throughout the books. Christian had the ever innocent and soon to be dominated Anastasia wrapped around his pinky finger. While reading their relationship take shape, I cringed at the very thought of being so controlled by someone else.
Ladies of all ages, of all walks of life, of all career paths, YOU can determine your own sexual identity in a relationship. If you are ok with what Christian and Anastasia represent, then who am I to say otherwise? I would not introduce such literature to a younger audience though. If a little girl asked me about this trilogy, I would pull them off to the side and really let them know that you need to love yourself first and foremost before you allow any man to determine what he wants in a relationship. It should be a 50/50 situation not a 50 SHADES OF GREY.
Stay tuned because I am going to watch the movie. And bash the hell out of it too. :)
I hope you all have a wonderful 2014 and I'll be sure to keep on blogging on. :)
Friday, January 3, 2014
New Year, New Post, New Me
It's been awhile. I start almost every blog with the same sentence, so deal with it. :) Before I begin on anything, I kept a promise or basically said I would write about this particular topic to a few friends, so now I am going to do it. I am going to bash 50 Shades of Grey.
Have you read the trilogy? Have you fully absorbed the underlying message this hodge podge of crap is trying to convey to female readers? Well, let me entertain you. I read the trilogy and laughed throughout the entire thing. This book is sad and creepy. My boyfriend called it 'mommy porn' which almost made me puke in my mouth. Do you want to imagine that? No, no I didn't think so. What in the world is going through mother's minds throughout the world if they deem these disgusting novels as 'fun' or ewww... 'romantic'?
My theory is simply this. After awhile, marriages must reach a 'boring' stage, guess what? That's called real life. Get used to it. Apparently, this author wants to 'spice up' the sex lives of these deprived mothers and housewives everywhere. To each his own on that front. But ask yourself this, if you were a mother (I am not ready to be one for quite some time yet) or if you ARE a mother, would you allow your pre-teen daughter to read these books? My answer? NO. I would never want my future-somewhere-down-the-road-daughter to EVER think it is ok for a man to use objects or his hands on her for HIS pleasure.
S&M is a culture unto itself that I personally know nothing about. For members of this culture, if that is what they choose to do to one another and it works in their relationships, then that's fine. But, for a young impressionable girl to start reading books like this.. a girl that may not be sexually active yet, and doesn't quite know her own sexual identity-who knows the damage that could do. Women should never be seen as objects both in and outside of relationships. I have been in situations where I have been treated with 0 respect, and I will never allow myself to be treated that way again. The things I was told, would make you roll your eyes at me and ask 'why did you allow that to happen?' Or, better yet... 'why did you allow yourself to be treated that way?'
Because when I was younger, I didn't know any better. And, I will tell you this- I have encountered folks that closely resemble Christian Grey, and that is not a compliment to them or to anyone else. What Christian Grey represents is CONTROL. Sheer emotional CONTROL over another human being. You don't have to use your hands to control someone else, emotional manipulation and verbal abuse are often key. In this trilogy, I would say EMOTIONAL MANIPULATION was seen left and right throughout the books. Christian had the ever innocent and soon to be dominated Anastasia wrapped around his pinky finger. While reading their relationship take shape, I cringed at the very thought of being so controlled by someone else.
Ladies of all ages, of all walks of life, of all career paths, YOU can determine your own sexual identity in a relationship. If you are ok with what Christian and Anastasia represent, then who am I to say otherwise? I would not introduce such literature to a younger audience though. If a little girl asked me about this trilogy, I would pull them off to the side and really let them know that you need to love yourself first and foremost before you allow any man to determine what he wants in a relationship. It should be a 50/50 situation not a 50 SHADES OF GREY.
Stay tuned because I am going to watch the movie. And bash the hell out of it too. :)
I hope you all have a wonderful 2014 and I'll be sure to keep on blogging on. :)
Have you read the trilogy? Have you fully absorbed the underlying message this hodge podge of crap is trying to convey to female readers? Well, let me entertain you. I read the trilogy and laughed throughout the entire thing. This book is sad and creepy. My boyfriend called it 'mommy porn' which almost made me puke in my mouth. Do you want to imagine that? No, no I didn't think so. What in the world is going through mother's minds throughout the world if they deem these disgusting novels as 'fun' or ewww... 'romantic'?
My theory is simply this. After awhile, marriages must reach a 'boring' stage, guess what? That's called real life. Get used to it. Apparently, this author wants to 'spice up' the sex lives of these deprived mothers and housewives everywhere. To each his own on that front. But ask yourself this, if you were a mother (I am not ready to be one for quite some time yet) or if you ARE a mother, would you allow your pre-teen daughter to read these books? My answer? NO. I would never want my future-somewhere-down-the-road-daughter to EVER think it is ok for a man to use objects or his hands on her for HIS pleasure.
S&M is a culture unto itself that I personally know nothing about. For members of this culture, if that is what they choose to do to one another and it works in their relationships, then that's fine. But, for a young impressionable girl to start reading books like this.. a girl that may not be sexually active yet, and doesn't quite know her own sexual identity-who knows the damage that could do. Women should never be seen as objects both in and outside of relationships. I have been in situations where I have been treated with 0 respect, and I will never allow myself to be treated that way again. The things I was told, would make you roll your eyes at me and ask 'why did you allow that to happen?' Or, better yet... 'why did you allow yourself to be treated that way?'
Because when I was younger, I didn't know any better. And, I will tell you this- I have encountered folks that closely resemble Christian Grey, and that is not a compliment to them or to anyone else. What Christian Grey represents is CONTROL. Sheer emotional CONTROL over another human being. You don't have to use your hands to control someone else, emotional manipulation and verbal abuse are often key. In this trilogy, I would say EMOTIONAL MANIPULATION was seen left and right throughout the books. Christian had the ever innocent and soon to be dominated Anastasia wrapped around his pinky finger. While reading their relationship take shape, I cringed at the very thought of being so controlled by someone else.
Ladies of all ages, of all walks of life, of all career paths, YOU can determine your own sexual identity in a relationship. If you are ok with what Christian and Anastasia represent, then who am I to say otherwise? I would not introduce such literature to a younger audience though. If a little girl asked me about this trilogy, I would pull them off to the side and really let them know that you need to love yourself first and foremost before you allow any man to determine what he wants in a relationship. It should be a 50/50 situation not a 50 SHADES OF GREY.
Stay tuned because I am going to watch the movie. And bash the hell out of it too. :)
I hope you all have a wonderful 2014 and I'll be sure to keep on blogging on. :)
Wednesday, May 29, 2013
Times They Are a Changing
I have a lot to report. I haven't been on here in a very long time, and that is no one's fault but my own.
I truly believe the saying nowadays 'good things come to those who wait.' Well, I waited and waited and waited for things to turn around in my life and guess what? They finally did! Don't get me wrong, I am still a cynic when it comes to love and relationships and will sadly continue to expect the worst and be happily surprised when the opposite happens. It's just an odd protection mechanism I use, I don't really know how else to explain it. It is what it is.
I met someone, and even asked his permission to put his first name (not last as well, that would be weird) in my blog! :) My boyfriend agreed because he is a good man overall. His name is Nick and we have been together since March 2013 (after St. Patty's Day to be exact.) Things between us are going really well. I have found a partner in certain hobbies that folks either find me strange or are just too uncomfortable to talk about with me. We both LOVE horror movies and the supernatural in general. Most folks would run for the hills when I start talking about my love of bloody B rated flicks, but not Nick. He stuck around and even enjoys exploring them with me. Although we have been together for a short span of time I feel like I've known him for awhile. I am comfortable around him and let my guard down a lot sooner than even I expected. We talk about anything and everything basically everyday and haven't run out of things to talk about. I can confide in him and he in me. It's a rare and amazing thing. :)
I hope you read this Hun
and enjoy it. I'm so glad I met you this year. I have a good feeling about us and truly enjoy spending weekends and week days walking around the forest preserves with you. Here's to many more weekends and forest preserve adventures! :) Fate has a funny way of working in your favor if you just let it. Nick and I were talking about it this weekend how if it weren't for our friend's St. Patty's Day shindig (the dead sexy couple that is Aimee and Donny) we would never have met each other! Given his home/work location and mine as well it just wouldn't happen. We met each other at the right time in our lives. We were both single for an extended period of time beforehand (a year for me) and just let the cards fall where they may. I am happy and haven't felt that emotion in a long time. :)
Not only did I meet a great guy, but I have a pretty decent job as well. I am currently a copywriter/marketing contractor with a pool supply company that I will not list here. The only catch is-it's a 6 month contract position with no guarantee of a permanent position. :( I am hoping for the best, but we shall see what happens when the end of the contract rolls around. For the most part, besides the disorganized confusion during the work week I enjoy what I am doing. I am finally WRITING and getting paid for it. I update their social sites daily (Facebook, Twitter, Pinterest, and Google+) and write for the company blog. I also created content for their new website which was a challenge to say the very least. Now that the new site is up and running the office is a more casual atmosphere. Folks aren't snapping at each other and the tension level has since dropped. We'll see where it takes me, if anything it's experience under my belt.
My family and I just came back from a breathtaking trip to Greece. We visited Athens, Santorini, and Mykonos. I loved the culture, the food, and the beaches. If the future allows it, I can't wait to go back and discover more islands. It was truly paradise. I don't know if it's like that all year round but for us we needed to get away from work and our lives for a little bit. It was needed and did the body and the mind good. I was a moody wench most of the time because I was still getting over strep throat and other things happened that week as well. My family put up with it anyway, and hopefully my witty sarcastic humor masked my snappiness after all.
Right now, I don't have anything else to report other than my childhood friend Emily is marrying her fiance Jason, this Saturday and I couldn't be happier for those two. :) I will probably blog about that or something after the festivities. I wish them a true lifetime of love and happiness. They are meant to be together!
And, that's all she wrote....
For now.
I truly believe the saying nowadays 'good things come to those who wait.' Well, I waited and waited and waited for things to turn around in my life and guess what? They finally did! Don't get me wrong, I am still a cynic when it comes to love and relationships and will sadly continue to expect the worst and be happily surprised when the opposite happens. It's just an odd protection mechanism I use, I don't really know how else to explain it. It is what it is.
I met someone, and even asked his permission to put his first name (not last as well, that would be weird) in my blog! :) My boyfriend agreed because he is a good man overall. His name is Nick and we have been together since March 2013 (after St. Patty's Day to be exact.) Things between us are going really well. I have found a partner in certain hobbies that folks either find me strange or are just too uncomfortable to talk about with me. We both LOVE horror movies and the supernatural in general. Most folks would run for the hills when I start talking about my love of bloody B rated flicks, but not Nick. He stuck around and even enjoys exploring them with me. Although we have been together for a short span of time I feel like I've known him for awhile. I am comfortable around him and let my guard down a lot sooner than even I expected. We talk about anything and everything basically everyday and haven't run out of things to talk about. I can confide in him and he in me. It's a rare and amazing thing. :)
I hope you read this Hun
and enjoy it. I'm so glad I met you this year. I have a good feeling about us and truly enjoy spending weekends and week days walking around the forest preserves with you. Here's to many more weekends and forest preserve adventures! :) Fate has a funny way of working in your favor if you just let it. Nick and I were talking about it this weekend how if it weren't for our friend's St. Patty's Day shindig (the dead sexy couple that is Aimee and Donny) we would never have met each other! Given his home/work location and mine as well it just wouldn't happen. We met each other at the right time in our lives. We were both single for an extended period of time beforehand (a year for me) and just let the cards fall where they may. I am happy and haven't felt that emotion in a long time. :)
Not only did I meet a great guy, but I have a pretty decent job as well. I am currently a copywriter/marketing contractor with a pool supply company that I will not list here. The only catch is-it's a 6 month contract position with no guarantee of a permanent position. :( I am hoping for the best, but we shall see what happens when the end of the contract rolls around. For the most part, besides the disorganized confusion during the work week I enjoy what I am doing. I am finally WRITING and getting paid for it. I update their social sites daily (Facebook, Twitter, Pinterest, and Google+) and write for the company blog. I also created content for their new website which was a challenge to say the very least. Now that the new site is up and running the office is a more casual atmosphere. Folks aren't snapping at each other and the tension level has since dropped. We'll see where it takes me, if anything it's experience under my belt.
My family and I just came back from a breathtaking trip to Greece. We visited Athens, Santorini, and Mykonos. I loved the culture, the food, and the beaches. If the future allows it, I can't wait to go back and discover more islands. It was truly paradise. I don't know if it's like that all year round but for us we needed to get away from work and our lives for a little bit. It was needed and did the body and the mind good. I was a moody wench most of the time because I was still getting over strep throat and other things happened that week as well. My family put up with it anyway, and hopefully my witty sarcastic humor masked my snappiness after all.
Right now, I don't have anything else to report other than my childhood friend Emily is marrying her fiance Jason, this Saturday and I couldn't be happier for those two. :) I will probably blog about that or something after the festivities. I wish them a true lifetime of love and happiness. They are meant to be together!
And, that's all she wrote....
For now.
Times They Are a Changing
I have a lot to report. I haven't been on here in a very long time, and that is no one's fault but my own.
I truly believe the saying nowadays 'good things come to those who wait.' Well, I waited and waited and waited for things to turn around in my life and guess what? They finally did! Don't get me wrong, I am still a cynic when it comes to love and relationships and will sadly continue to expect the worst and be happily surprised when the opposite happens. It's just an odd protection mechanism I use, I don't really know how else to explain it. It is what it is.
I met someone, and even asked his permission to put his first name (not last as well, that would be weird) in my blog! :) My boyfriend agreed because he is a good man overall. His name is Nick and we have been together since March 2013 (after St. Patty's Day to be exact.) Things between us are going really well. I have found a partner in certain hobbies that folks either find me strange or are just too uncomfortable to talk about with me. We both LOVE horror movies and the supernatural in general. Most folks would run for the hills when I start talking about my love of bloody B rated flicks, but not Nick. He stuck around and even enjoys exploring them with me. Although we have been together for a short span of time I feel like I've known him for awhile. I am comfortable around him and let my guard down a lot sooner than even I expected. We talk about anything and everything basically everyday and haven't run out of things to talk about. I can confide in him and he in me. It's a rare and amazing thing. :)
I hope you read this Hun
and enjoy it. I'm so glad I met you this year. I have a good feeling about us and truly enjoy spending weekends and week days walking around the forest preserves with you. Here's to many more weekends and forest preserve adventures! :) Fate has a funny way of working in your favor if you just let it. Nick and I were talking about it this weekend how if it weren't for our friend's St. Patty's Day shindig (the dead sexy couple that is Aimee and Donny) we would never have met each other! Given his home/work location and mine as well it just wouldn't happen. We met each other at the right time in our lives. We were both single for an extended period of time beforehand (a year for me) and just let the cards fall where they may. I am happy and haven't felt that emotion in a long time. :)
Not only did I meet a great guy, but I have a pretty decent job as well. I am currently a copywriter/marketing contractor with a pool supply company that I will not list here. The only catch is-it's a 6 month contract position with no guarantee of a permanent position. :( I am hoping for the best, but we shall see what happens when the end of the contract rolls around. For the most part, besides the disorganized confusion during the work week I enjoy what I am doing. I am finally WRITING and getting paid for it. I update their social sites daily (Facebook, Twitter, Pinterest, and Google+) and write for the company blog. I also created content for their new website which was a challenge to say the very least. Now that the new site is up and running the office is a more casual atmosphere. Folks aren't snapping at each other and the tension level has since dropped. We'll see where it takes me, if anything it's experience under my belt.
My family and I just came back from a breathtaking trip to Greece. We visited Athens, Santorini, and Mykonos. I loved the culture, the food, and the beaches. If the future allows it, I can't wait to go back and discover more islands. It was truly paradise. I don't know if it's like that all year round but for us we needed to get away from work and our lives for a little bit. It was needed and did the body and the mind good. I was a moody wench most of the time because I was still getting over strep throat and other things happened that week as well. My family put up with it anyway, and hopefully my witty sarcastic humor masked my snappiness after all.
Right now, I don't have anything else to report other than my childhood friend Emily is marrying her fiance Jason, this Saturday and I couldn't be happier for those two. :) I will probably blog about that or something after the festivities. I wish them a true lifetime of love and happiness. They are meant to be together!
And, that's all she wrote....
For now.
I truly believe the saying nowadays 'good things come to those who wait.' Well, I waited and waited and waited for things to turn around in my life and guess what? They finally did! Don't get me wrong, I am still a cynic when it comes to love and relationships and will sadly continue to expect the worst and be happily surprised when the opposite happens. It's just an odd protection mechanism I use, I don't really know how else to explain it. It is what it is.
I met someone, and even asked his permission to put his first name (not last as well, that would be weird) in my blog! :) My boyfriend agreed because he is a good man overall. His name is Nick and we have been together since March 2013 (after St. Patty's Day to be exact.) Things between us are going really well. I have found a partner in certain hobbies that folks either find me strange or are just too uncomfortable to talk about with me. We both LOVE horror movies and the supernatural in general. Most folks would run for the hills when I start talking about my love of bloody B rated flicks, but not Nick. He stuck around and even enjoys exploring them with me. Although we have been together for a short span of time I feel like I've known him for awhile. I am comfortable around him and let my guard down a lot sooner than even I expected. We talk about anything and everything basically everyday and haven't run out of things to talk about. I can confide in him and he in me. It's a rare and amazing thing. :)
I hope you read this Hun
and enjoy it. I'm so glad I met you this year. I have a good feeling about us and truly enjoy spending weekends and week days walking around the forest preserves with you. Here's to many more weekends and forest preserve adventures! :) Fate has a funny way of working in your favor if you just let it. Nick and I were talking about it this weekend how if it weren't for our friend's St. Patty's Day shindig (the dead sexy couple that is Aimee and Donny) we would never have met each other! Given his home/work location and mine as well it just wouldn't happen. We met each other at the right time in our lives. We were both single for an extended period of time beforehand (a year for me) and just let the cards fall where they may. I am happy and haven't felt that emotion in a long time. :)
Not only did I meet a great guy, but I have a pretty decent job as well. I am currently a copywriter/marketing contractor with a pool supply company that I will not list here. The only catch is-it's a 6 month contract position with no guarantee of a permanent position. :( I am hoping for the best, but we shall see what happens when the end of the contract rolls around. For the most part, besides the disorganized confusion during the work week I enjoy what I am doing. I am finally WRITING and getting paid for it. I update their social sites daily (Facebook, Twitter, Pinterest, and Google+) and write for the company blog. I also created content for their new website which was a challenge to say the very least. Now that the new site is up and running the office is a more casual atmosphere. Folks aren't snapping at each other and the tension level has since dropped. We'll see where it takes me, if anything it's experience under my belt.
My family and I just came back from a breathtaking trip to Greece. We visited Athens, Santorini, and Mykonos. I loved the culture, the food, and the beaches. If the future allows it, I can't wait to go back and discover more islands. It was truly paradise. I don't know if it's like that all year round but for us we needed to get away from work and our lives for a little bit. It was needed and did the body and the mind good. I was a moody wench most of the time because I was still getting over strep throat and other things happened that week as well. My family put up with it anyway, and hopefully my witty sarcastic humor masked my snappiness after all.
Right now, I don't have anything else to report other than my childhood friend Emily is marrying her fiance Jason, this Saturday and I couldn't be happier for those two. :) I will probably blog about that or something after the festivities. I wish them a true lifetime of love and happiness. They are meant to be together!
And, that's all she wrote....
For now.
Tuesday, February 19, 2013
Life In The Not-So-Fast Lane
I survived another birthday weekend. :) I celebrated with family on the actual day (Feb.12th) and with friends this past weekend (Feb.16th.) I learned my lesson in planning reservations at large restaurants, never, ever, trust them. Call them a day in advance to be sure they have everything correct. When I arrived at the bar we were to wine and dine at, I was told the tables I specifically asked for were taken because of the 'game.' The 'game'? Are you kidding me? Do I give a crap about some sport event when I have my friends waiting on the table taps I was supposedly promised a week ago? Naturally, I was infuriated, but kept a semi-cool with shots of Ketel-One vodka, and a delicious strawberry mojito. We waited over an hour until the 'tables' became available. Then we took them like selfish little playground children fighting over sparkly chalk.
Every year SOMETHING happens when I gather a big group of my friends to celebrate my birthday. Last year my skirt ripped all the way up the back, this year I have a cold and lost a fun table reservation (only to gain it later that evening after much bitching.) I guess being a semi-jerk does get you far in life. I should've pushed the wait staff to get us all a free round. I don't think they cared that much to go for it, but I won't be going back there for awhile. Maybe for food in the future, but never again will I celebrate another year alive at that place.
That's right, I am another year alive in the not-so-fast-lane. Two close friends of mine recently became engaged, and I have two weddings coming up. One in my May for my childhood buddy Emily and her fiancee Jason, and I am a bridesmaid to my college friend- Amanda's wedding in July. I am ecstatically happy for my friends. All of them. I am overcome with joy at the fact they found someone to spend the rest of their lives with. There is a tinge of sadness here though, as all single folks much like myself sometimes experience. It's the knowledge that your friendship with said individuals is about to change. Yes, when a friend moves from singledom to 'taken'-dom your time together (especially in the honeymoon phase) lessens over time. Instead of hanging out maybe every two weeks, it becomes a month, two months, three months, and for some can even escalate up to a year.
I know everyone gets busy with a significant other, but what about the single folks swimming through the sea of disastrous dates and failed relationships? I am left congratulating everyone on a job well done in love, when I am looking for it (eventually) myself. I am so cynical and closed off these days, I am going to just 'wait and see' what the hell happens. They say if you aren't looking it will find you. I don't believe that. The universe doesn't always give a crap or play in your favor. Sometimes you have to go out there, outside of your comfort zone, and talk to the opposite sex. Lo and behold, what a concept! Recently, I have been doing that- and I did meet someone I am fond of (more like a crush folks don't get all sappy on me) but we shall see what happens with that. I don't chase men. That is unbecoming and strange.
Let's get one thing straight though, I actually like being single. I know, who says that? I've had friends gasp at me and ask 'what? you want to be single in your 30's?!?!' like it's some cursed age. Like by the time I turn 30 I will dry up and fart dust at the thought of a relationship. I want to fart at the thought of a relationship as is, but for different reasons. There is nothing wrong with being single and figuring out what you want, what you need, and most importantly-who you are. 'Know thyself.' That's what I've been doing for the last 11 months, and I plan to keep it up.
It isn't healthy to be that person that jumps from relationship to relationship. Get to know yourself first, before you dive in and combine lives with somebody else. Give yourself a break after a 'break-up' and allow the wounds to heal. It doesn't matter how long it takes you, everybody is different for crying out loud. Just do it. I often worry for friends of mine that haven't 'dated around' like I have. I hope they are making the right decisions with these men, and I want to see my friends celebrate 40th and 50th wedding anniversaries. That is what I wish for them above anything else. Not the fairy tale crap. But, the real deal. A true relationship with someone else.
I guess that's all I feel like saying right now.
I'm in the slow lane and it's exactly where I need to be.
We out.
Every year SOMETHING happens when I gather a big group of my friends to celebrate my birthday. Last year my skirt ripped all the way up the back, this year I have a cold and lost a fun table reservation (only to gain it later that evening after much bitching.) I guess being a semi-jerk does get you far in life. I should've pushed the wait staff to get us all a free round. I don't think they cared that much to go for it, but I won't be going back there for awhile. Maybe for food in the future, but never again will I celebrate another year alive at that place.
That's right, I am another year alive in the not-so-fast-lane. Two close friends of mine recently became engaged, and I have two weddings coming up. One in my May for my childhood buddy Emily and her fiancee Jason, and I am a bridesmaid to my college friend- Amanda's wedding in July. I am ecstatically happy for my friends. All of them. I am overcome with joy at the fact they found someone to spend the rest of their lives with. There is a tinge of sadness here though, as all single folks much like myself sometimes experience. It's the knowledge that your friendship with said individuals is about to change. Yes, when a friend moves from singledom to 'taken'-dom your time together (especially in the honeymoon phase) lessens over time. Instead of hanging out maybe every two weeks, it becomes a month, two months, three months, and for some can even escalate up to a year.
I know everyone gets busy with a significant other, but what about the single folks swimming through the sea of disastrous dates and failed relationships? I am left congratulating everyone on a job well done in love, when I am looking for it (eventually) myself. I am so cynical and closed off these days, I am going to just 'wait and see' what the hell happens. They say if you aren't looking it will find you. I don't believe that. The universe doesn't always give a crap or play in your favor. Sometimes you have to go out there, outside of your comfort zone, and talk to the opposite sex. Lo and behold, what a concept! Recently, I have been doing that- and I did meet someone I am fond of (more like a crush folks don't get all sappy on me) but we shall see what happens with that. I don't chase men. That is unbecoming and strange.
Let's get one thing straight though, I actually like being single. I know, who says that? I've had friends gasp at me and ask 'what? you want to be single in your 30's?!?!' like it's some cursed age. Like by the time I turn 30 I will dry up and fart dust at the thought of a relationship. I want to fart at the thought of a relationship as is, but for different reasons. There is nothing wrong with being single and figuring out what you want, what you need, and most importantly-who you are. 'Know thyself.' That's what I've been doing for the last 11 months, and I plan to keep it up.
It isn't healthy to be that person that jumps from relationship to relationship. Get to know yourself first, before you dive in and combine lives with somebody else. Give yourself a break after a 'break-up' and allow the wounds to heal. It doesn't matter how long it takes you, everybody is different for crying out loud. Just do it. I often worry for friends of mine that haven't 'dated around' like I have. I hope they are making the right decisions with these men, and I want to see my friends celebrate 40th and 50th wedding anniversaries. That is what I wish for them above anything else. Not the fairy tale crap. But, the real deal. A true relationship with someone else.
I guess that's all I feel like saying right now.
I'm in the slow lane and it's exactly where I need to be.
We out.
Life In The Not-So-Fast Lane
I survived another birthday weekend. :) I celebrated with family on the actual day (Feb.12th) and with friends this past weekend (Feb.16th.) I learned my lesson in planning reservations at large restaurants, never, ever, trust them. Call them a day in advance to be sure they have everything correct. When I arrived at the bar we were to wine and dine at, I was told the tables I specifically asked for were taken because of the 'game.' The 'game'? Are you kidding me? Do I give a crap about some sport event when I have my friends waiting on the table taps I was supposedly promised a week ago? Naturally, I was infuriated, but kept a semi-cool with shots of Ketel-One vodka, and a delicious strawberry mojito. We waited over an hour until the 'tables' became available. Then we took them like selfish little playground children fighting over sparkly chalk.
Every year SOMETHING happens when I gather a big group of my friends to celebrate my birthday. Last year my skirt ripped all the way up the back, this year I have a cold and lost a fun table reservation (only to gain it later that evening after much bitching.) I guess being a semi-jerk does get you far in life. I should've pushed the wait staff to get us all a free round. I don't think they cared that much to go for it, but I won't be going back there for awhile. Maybe for food in the future, but never again will I celebrate another year alive at that place.
That's right, I am another year alive in the not-so-fast-lane. Two close friends of mine recently became engaged, and I have two weddings coming up. One in my May for my childhood buddy Emily and her fiancee Jason, and I am a bridesmaid to my college friend- Amanda's wedding in July. I am ecstatically happy for my friends. All of them. I am overcome with joy at the fact they found someone to spend the rest of their lives with. There is a tinge of sadness here though, as all single folks much like myself sometimes experience. It's the knowledge that your friendship with said individuals is about to change. Yes, when a friend moves from singledom to 'taken'-dom your time together (especially in the honeymoon phase) lessens over time. Instead of hanging out maybe every two weeks, it becomes a month, two months, three months, and for some can even escalate up to a year.
I know everyone gets busy with a significant other, but what about the single folks swimming through the sea of disastrous dates and failed relationships? I am left congratulating everyone on a job well done in love, when I am looking for it (eventually) myself. I am so cynical and closed off these days, I am going to just 'wait and see' what the hell happens. They say if you aren't looking it will find you. I don't believe that. The universe doesn't always give a crap or play in your favor. Sometimes you have to go out there, outside of your comfort zone, and talk to the opposite sex. Lo and behold, what a concept! Recently, I have been doing that- and I did meet someone I am fond of (more like a crush folks don't get all sappy on me) but we shall see what happens with that. I don't chase men. That is unbecoming and strange.
Let's get one thing straight though, I actually like being single. I know, who says that? I've had friends gasp at me and ask 'what? you want to be single in your 30's?!?!' like it's some cursed age. Like by the time I turn 30 I will dry up and fart dust at the thought of a relationship. I want to fart at the thought of a relationship as is, but for different reasons. There is nothing wrong with being single and figuring out what you want, what you need, and most importantly-who you are. 'Know thyself.' That's what I've been doing for the last 11 months, and I plan to keep it up.
It isn't healthy to be that person that jumps from relationship to relationship. Get to know yourself first, before you dive in and combine lives with somebody else. Give yourself a break after a 'break-up' and allow the wounds to heal. It doesn't matter how long it takes you, everybody is different for crying out loud. Just do it. I often worry for friends of mine that haven't 'dated around' like I have. I hope they are making the right decisions with these men, and I want to see my friends celebrate 40th and 50th wedding anniversaries. That is what I wish for them above anything else. Not the fairy tale crap. But, the real deal. A true relationship with someone else.
I guess that's all I feel like saying right now.
I'm in the slow lane and it's exactly where I need to be.
We out.
Every year SOMETHING happens when I gather a big group of my friends to celebrate my birthday. Last year my skirt ripped all the way up the back, this year I have a cold and lost a fun table reservation (only to gain it later that evening after much bitching.) I guess being a semi-jerk does get you far in life. I should've pushed the wait staff to get us all a free round. I don't think they cared that much to go for it, but I won't be going back there for awhile. Maybe for food in the future, but never again will I celebrate another year alive at that place.
That's right, I am another year alive in the not-so-fast-lane. Two close friends of mine recently became engaged, and I have two weddings coming up. One in my May for my childhood buddy Emily and her fiancee Jason, and I am a bridesmaid to my college friend- Amanda's wedding in July. I am ecstatically happy for my friends. All of them. I am overcome with joy at the fact they found someone to spend the rest of their lives with. There is a tinge of sadness here though, as all single folks much like myself sometimes experience. It's the knowledge that your friendship with said individuals is about to change. Yes, when a friend moves from singledom to 'taken'-dom your time together (especially in the honeymoon phase) lessens over time. Instead of hanging out maybe every two weeks, it becomes a month, two months, three months, and for some can even escalate up to a year.
I know everyone gets busy with a significant other, but what about the single folks swimming through the sea of disastrous dates and failed relationships? I am left congratulating everyone on a job well done in love, when I am looking for it (eventually) myself. I am so cynical and closed off these days, I am going to just 'wait and see' what the hell happens. They say if you aren't looking it will find you. I don't believe that. The universe doesn't always give a crap or play in your favor. Sometimes you have to go out there, outside of your comfort zone, and talk to the opposite sex. Lo and behold, what a concept! Recently, I have been doing that- and I did meet someone I am fond of (more like a crush folks don't get all sappy on me) but we shall see what happens with that. I don't chase men. That is unbecoming and strange.
Let's get one thing straight though, I actually like being single. I know, who says that? I've had friends gasp at me and ask 'what? you want to be single in your 30's?!?!' like it's some cursed age. Like by the time I turn 30 I will dry up and fart dust at the thought of a relationship. I want to fart at the thought of a relationship as is, but for different reasons. There is nothing wrong with being single and figuring out what you want, what you need, and most importantly-who you are. 'Know thyself.' That's what I've been doing for the last 11 months, and I plan to keep it up.
It isn't healthy to be that person that jumps from relationship to relationship. Get to know yourself first, before you dive in and combine lives with somebody else. Give yourself a break after a 'break-up' and allow the wounds to heal. It doesn't matter how long it takes you, everybody is different for crying out loud. Just do it. I often worry for friends of mine that haven't 'dated around' like I have. I hope they are making the right decisions with these men, and I want to see my friends celebrate 40th and 50th wedding anniversaries. That is what I wish for them above anything else. Not the fairy tale crap. But, the real deal. A true relationship with someone else.
I guess that's all I feel like saying right now.
I'm in the slow lane and it's exactly where I need to be.
We out.
Thursday, January 17, 2013
Sarcasm Gets You Far in Life
Everyone. My readers, my friends, my family, my acquaintances that I only really see once a year... you need to check out this amazing link.
Whoever this young man is, I want you to know that I am pulling for you. I hope you get exactly what you want in your career because with writing like this, you deserve it. I want to follow in your steps and re-format my entire cover letter, my entire way of thinking.
Please folks give this a read: Best Blunt Cover Letter, Ever
I was INSPIRED last night. And these days that emotion is all but foreign to me. He got up and took a stand. He called the economy/wall street out and now they are eating out of the palm of HIS hand.
I am envious and in awe. Who wouldn't want big wig companies crawling and drooling at your feet? Take note folks, sex might sell in music, but sarcasm will get you the green in the business world.
I might blog more later tonight on other topics, we shall see.
Peace out for now. :)
Whoever this young man is, I want you to know that I am pulling for you. I hope you get exactly what you want in your career because with writing like this, you deserve it. I want to follow in your steps and re-format my entire cover letter, my entire way of thinking.
Please folks give this a read: Best Blunt Cover Letter, Ever
I was INSPIRED last night. And these days that emotion is all but foreign to me. He got up and took a stand. He called the economy/wall street out and now they are eating out of the palm of HIS hand.
I am envious and in awe. Who wouldn't want big wig companies crawling and drooling at your feet? Take note folks, sex might sell in music, but sarcasm will get you the green in the business world.
I might blog more later tonight on other topics, we shall see.
Peace out for now. :)
Sarcasm Gets You Far in Life
Everyone. My readers, my friends, my family, my acquaintances that I only really see once a year... you need to check out this amazing link.
Whoever this young man is, I want you to know that I am pulling for you. I hope you get exactly what you want in your career because with writing like this, you deserve it. I want to follow in your steps and re-format my entire cover letter, my entire way of thinking.
Please folks give this a read: Best Blunt Cover Letter, Ever
I was INSPIRED last night. And these days that emotion is all but foreign to me. He got up and took a stand. He called the economy/wall street out and now they are eating out of the palm of HIS hand.
I am envious and in awe. Who wouldn't want big wig companies crawling and drooling at your feet? Take note folks, sex might sell in music, but sarcasm will get you the green in the business world.
I might blog more later tonight on other topics, we shall see.
Peace out for now. :)
Whoever this young man is, I want you to know that I am pulling for you. I hope you get exactly what you want in your career because with writing like this, you deserve it. I want to follow in your steps and re-format my entire cover letter, my entire way of thinking.
Please folks give this a read: Best Blunt Cover Letter, Ever
I was INSPIRED last night. And these days that emotion is all but foreign to me. He got up and took a stand. He called the economy/wall street out and now they are eating out of the palm of HIS hand.
I am envious and in awe. Who wouldn't want big wig companies crawling and drooling at your feet? Take note folks, sex might sell in music, but sarcasm will get you the green in the business world.
I might blog more later tonight on other topics, we shall see.
Peace out for now. :)
Friday, January 11, 2013
2013.. I'm Still Here
Well, the new year came and went. The world in fact did not end! Big surprise there. I didn't suspect it would happen so soon anyway. I still think we have a global warming crisis on our hands, but no one seems to care/want to do anything about it. I think it should be a law to recycle and those that don't should be fined! I do love this winter though, it feels more like a freezing, damp, fall instead of snow blizzards and freezing rain.
We even had thunderstorms last night which is kind of strange in January. We still have a few months of the season left, so we shall see what it will bring. It is what it is, right?
I rang in the New Year with a few close friends of mine: Renata, Melissa, and Melissa's boyfriend, Junior. It was a lot of fun. We danced in a crowded pit stanking club and it was worth every penny. I would party with those folks again in a heartbeat. I had so much more fun than I did last year; with worrying about being trampled on downtown. I will never go downtown for new year's again... it just isn't worth it to me. Large, sweaty, crowds of drunk people scare me. I don't like them, I'm sure they don't like me.. so it's best to avoid the situation all together I think. :)
I will admit when midnight rolled around and my two beautiful friends had someone to kiss.. that was a little awkward for me. But, then Melissa turned to me and gave me a little peck on the lips so it was all good. Hahaha. I did meet someone that night. A friend of Renata's boyfriend- and he seemed pretty cool. (I won't mention his name lo siento). Who knows if anything will happen with that, either way... I am always up for meeting new friends to hang with so it's all good to me.
I don't make New Year's Resolution lists anymore because I think they are just pointless. Mine would go far past the boundaries of this blogger with all the physical, emotional, and financial changes I would like to make/see happen this year. It all boils down to one common denominator: ME. I am the only one that can make these changes come through. I can't blame the economy (well, in some aspects I have every damn right to), but overall I need to change my pessimistic attitude. Because after all, 'negative things happen to negative people' right? That seems to be my long running case after all. I am going to change it.
This year I am going to write more, be creative, feel more, think more, take more risks (in the spring I am going to enroll in improv classes at a local theater) it was a xmas gift from my aunt and my mama. :) I am going to aim for my dreams even if they appear unattainable now.. what is life without dreams? What is life without trying to better yourself in all aspects? These are things I need to do, and for whatever reason... this year.. I feel like I am actually going to do them.
As mentioned in older blogs, I don't really like Xmas. Too many memories with people that are now gone from my life plague me during this holiday. My friends and neighbors kept my spirits and my family's spirits extra high this time around. I want to thank you all (you know who you are) my mama's friends, and the 'neighbor families' for being so understanding and thoughtful. I don't know if you read this, but I am giving you a shout out anyway! :D Thank you for making this season a fun one, instead of one trapped in memories that bring bittersweet tears.
To my amazing high school and college gurls- thank you all for your amazing gifts this year! You have outdone yourselves and I feel terrible I was unable to reciprocate with some of you. :/ One day, when I actually have a job/career I will be able to splurge more on Xmas. But this year, was not that year for me. :( It's that whole.. 'oh crap, you bought me something? now I feel like a total dick because my cheap ass has nothing for you' syndrome. Not a fun feeling at all really. Not at all.
I am still emo as ever, but I have a better outlook on things some days. With intermittent interviews here and there I see some hope. Whether these companies deem me 'good enough' or 'worthy enough' for their particular positions is really on them. I know I am qualified with a go- get em' ready to learn attitude. If I don't convey that in interviews... well, that's on me.
Change, change, change, is my 2nd middle name for 2013.
Here goes everything! :)
We even had thunderstorms last night which is kind of strange in January. We still have a few months of the season left, so we shall see what it will bring. It is what it is, right?
I rang in the New Year with a few close friends of mine: Renata, Melissa, and Melissa's boyfriend, Junior. It was a lot of fun. We danced in a crowded pit stanking club and it was worth every penny. I would party with those folks again in a heartbeat. I had so much more fun than I did last year; with worrying about being trampled on downtown. I will never go downtown for new year's again... it just isn't worth it to me. Large, sweaty, crowds of drunk people scare me. I don't like them, I'm sure they don't like me.. so it's best to avoid the situation all together I think. :)
I will admit when midnight rolled around and my two beautiful friends had someone to kiss.. that was a little awkward for me. But, then Melissa turned to me and gave me a little peck on the lips so it was all good. Hahaha. I did meet someone that night. A friend of Renata's boyfriend- and he seemed pretty cool. (I won't mention his name lo siento). Who knows if anything will happen with that, either way... I am always up for meeting new friends to hang with so it's all good to me.
I don't make New Year's Resolution lists anymore because I think they are just pointless. Mine would go far past the boundaries of this blogger with all the physical, emotional, and financial changes I would like to make/see happen this year. It all boils down to one common denominator: ME. I am the only one that can make these changes come through. I can't blame the economy (well, in some aspects I have every damn right to), but overall I need to change my pessimistic attitude. Because after all, 'negative things happen to negative people' right? That seems to be my long running case after all. I am going to change it.
This year I am going to write more, be creative, feel more, think more, take more risks (in the spring I am going to enroll in improv classes at a local theater) it was a xmas gift from my aunt and my mama. :) I am going to aim for my dreams even if they appear unattainable now.. what is life without dreams? What is life without trying to better yourself in all aspects? These are things I need to do, and for whatever reason... this year.. I feel like I am actually going to do them.
As mentioned in older blogs, I don't really like Xmas. Too many memories with people that are now gone from my life plague me during this holiday. My friends and neighbors kept my spirits and my family's spirits extra high this time around. I want to thank you all (you know who you are) my mama's friends, and the 'neighbor families' for being so understanding and thoughtful. I don't know if you read this, but I am giving you a shout out anyway! :D Thank you for making this season a fun one, instead of one trapped in memories that bring bittersweet tears.
To my amazing high school and college gurls- thank you all for your amazing gifts this year! You have outdone yourselves and I feel terrible I was unable to reciprocate with some of you. :/ One day, when I actually have a job/career I will be able to splurge more on Xmas. But this year, was not that year for me. :( It's that whole.. 'oh crap, you bought me something? now I feel like a total dick because my cheap ass has nothing for you' syndrome. Not a fun feeling at all really. Not at all.
I am still emo as ever, but I have a better outlook on things some days. With intermittent interviews here and there I see some hope. Whether these companies deem me 'good enough' or 'worthy enough' for their particular positions is really on them. I know I am qualified with a go- get em' ready to learn attitude. If I don't convey that in interviews... well, that's on me.
Change, change, change, is my 2nd middle name for 2013.
Here goes everything! :)
2013.. I'm Still Here
Well, the new year came and went. The world in fact did not end! Big surprise there. I didn't suspect it would happen so soon anyway. I still think we have a global warming crisis on our hands, but no one seems to care/want to do anything about it. I think it should be a law to recycle and those that don't should be fined! I do love this winter though, it feels more like a freezing, damp, fall instead of snow blizzards and freezing rain.
We even had thunderstorms last night which is kind of strange in January. We still have a few months of the season left, so we shall see what it will bring. It is what it is, right?
I rang in the New Year with a few close friends of mine: Renata, Melissa, and Melissa's boyfriend, Junior. It was a lot of fun. We danced in a crowded pit stanking club and it was worth every penny. I would party with those folks again in a heartbeat. I had so much more fun than I did last year; with worrying about being trampled on downtown. I will never go downtown for new year's again... it just isn't worth it to me. Large, sweaty, crowds of drunk people scare me. I don't like them, I'm sure they don't like me.. so it's best to avoid the situation all together I think. :)
I will admit when midnight rolled around and my two beautiful friends had someone to kiss.. that was a little awkward for me. But, then Melissa turned to me and gave me a little peck on the lips so it was all good. Hahaha. I did meet someone that night. A friend of Renata's boyfriend- and he seemed pretty cool. (I won't mention his name lo siento). Who knows if anything will happen with that, either way... I am always up for meeting new friends to hang with so it's all good to me.
I don't make New Year's Resolution lists anymore because I think they are just pointless. Mine would go far past the boundaries of this blogger with all the physical, emotional, and financial changes I would like to make/see happen this year. It all boils down to one common denominator: ME. I am the only one that can make these changes come through. I can't blame the economy (well, in some aspects I have every damn right to), but overall I need to change my pessimistic attitude. Because after all, 'negative things happen to negative people' right? That seems to be my long running case after all. I am going to change it.
This year I am going to write more, be creative, feel more, think more, take more risks (in the spring I am going to enroll in improv classes at a local theater) it was a xmas gift from my aunt and my mama. :) I am going to aim for my dreams even if they appear unattainable now.. what is life without dreams? What is life without trying to better yourself in all aspects? These are things I need to do, and for whatever reason... this year.. I feel like I am actually going to do them.
As mentioned in older blogs, I don't really like Xmas. Too many memories with people that are now gone from my life plague me during this holiday. My friends and neighbors kept my spirits and my family's spirits extra high this time around. I want to thank you all (you know who you are) my mama's friends, and the 'neighbor families' for being so understanding and thoughtful. I don't know if you read this, but I am giving you a shout out anyway! :D Thank you for making this season a fun one, instead of one trapped in memories that bring bittersweet tears.
To my amazing high school and college gurls- thank you all for your amazing gifts this year! You have outdone yourselves and I feel terrible I was unable to reciprocate with some of you. :/ One day, when I actually have a job/career I will be able to splurge more on Xmas. But this year, was not that year for me. :( It's that whole.. 'oh crap, you bought me something? now I feel like a total dick because my cheap ass has nothing for you' syndrome. Not a fun feeling at all really. Not at all.
I am still emo as ever, but I have a better outlook on things some days. With intermittent interviews here and there I see some hope. Whether these companies deem me 'good enough' or 'worthy enough' for their particular positions is really on them. I know I am qualified with a go- get em' ready to learn attitude. If I don't convey that in interviews... well, that's on me.
Change, change, change, is my 2nd middle name for 2013.
Here goes everything! :)
We even had thunderstorms last night which is kind of strange in January. We still have a few months of the season left, so we shall see what it will bring. It is what it is, right?
I rang in the New Year with a few close friends of mine: Renata, Melissa, and Melissa's boyfriend, Junior. It was a lot of fun. We danced in a crowded pit stanking club and it was worth every penny. I would party with those folks again in a heartbeat. I had so much more fun than I did last year; with worrying about being trampled on downtown. I will never go downtown for new year's again... it just isn't worth it to me. Large, sweaty, crowds of drunk people scare me. I don't like them, I'm sure they don't like me.. so it's best to avoid the situation all together I think. :)
I will admit when midnight rolled around and my two beautiful friends had someone to kiss.. that was a little awkward for me. But, then Melissa turned to me and gave me a little peck on the lips so it was all good. Hahaha. I did meet someone that night. A friend of Renata's boyfriend- and he seemed pretty cool. (I won't mention his name lo siento). Who knows if anything will happen with that, either way... I am always up for meeting new friends to hang with so it's all good to me.
I don't make New Year's Resolution lists anymore because I think they are just pointless. Mine would go far past the boundaries of this blogger with all the physical, emotional, and financial changes I would like to make/see happen this year. It all boils down to one common denominator: ME. I am the only one that can make these changes come through. I can't blame the economy (well, in some aspects I have every damn right to), but overall I need to change my pessimistic attitude. Because after all, 'negative things happen to negative people' right? That seems to be my long running case after all. I am going to change it.
This year I am going to write more, be creative, feel more, think more, take more risks (in the spring I am going to enroll in improv classes at a local theater) it was a xmas gift from my aunt and my mama. :) I am going to aim for my dreams even if they appear unattainable now.. what is life without dreams? What is life without trying to better yourself in all aspects? These are things I need to do, and for whatever reason... this year.. I feel like I am actually going to do them.
As mentioned in older blogs, I don't really like Xmas. Too many memories with people that are now gone from my life plague me during this holiday. My friends and neighbors kept my spirits and my family's spirits extra high this time around. I want to thank you all (you know who you are) my mama's friends, and the 'neighbor families' for being so understanding and thoughtful. I don't know if you read this, but I am giving you a shout out anyway! :D Thank you for making this season a fun one, instead of one trapped in memories that bring bittersweet tears.
To my amazing high school and college gurls- thank you all for your amazing gifts this year! You have outdone yourselves and I feel terrible I was unable to reciprocate with some of you. :/ One day, when I actually have a job/career I will be able to splurge more on Xmas. But this year, was not that year for me. :( It's that whole.. 'oh crap, you bought me something? now I feel like a total dick because my cheap ass has nothing for you' syndrome. Not a fun feeling at all really. Not at all.
I am still emo as ever, but I have a better outlook on things some days. With intermittent interviews here and there I see some hope. Whether these companies deem me 'good enough' or 'worthy enough' for their particular positions is really on them. I know I am qualified with a go- get em' ready to learn attitude. If I don't convey that in interviews... well, that's on me.
Change, change, change, is my 2nd middle name for 2013.
Here goes everything! :)
Friday, December 7, 2012
And So It Is....
Time to write, time to think, time to do a lot of things with this here blogger.
I am currently unemployed at the moment. It is not the best position to be in, but it could be a lot worse and sometimes I forget that. I've been laid off twice this year and just trudging along through it with my head barely above chin level some days.
Why is it so difficult to keep a damn job these days? It's outright unacceptable. There are families out there struggling to keep their homes and what are the banks and the big wigs doing about it? From the ground I don't see much changing. Homes are in foreclosure, parents are losing jobs (either laid off or fired), this shouldn't be happening. What happened to the days of yore when we had a thriving economy where jobs were plentiful and accessible to anyone of any background?
We need to get back there somehow. I hope President Obama can aide us in this venture, I have hope that change will happen, but it just won't happen for some time yet. I know people are impatient. I am impatient. Believe it or not, I had plans after college, there were things I wanted to do, places I wanted to live, and independence I couldn't wait to gain.
What is that quote? Life is 80% what happens to you, and 20% what you take from it and do with it. Maybe it's wrong, but what does it matter? Things are thrown at you, and you have to adjust or come up with an alternative plan and move on from there. Recently, I applied for unemployment insurance and I hope I am accepted. I answered a key question incorrectly in the application process and was paid 2 DAYS AFTER I was laid off. I'm not sure how much it complicate things, but from the looks of it, I will either be denied or delayed to receive my claim benefits. I have an 'appeal interview' coming up next week, and I am going to plead my case to the best of my abilities. After all, I worked for this money at companies and jobs that I didn't 'LOVE' by any means. Still, I busted my ass, showed up to work with an eager attitude, and this is what I get in return? Fancy that.
I hope IDES can work with me on this, but we'll see. There are procedures I'm sure they have to follow on their end. I am only a number as far as they're concerned. Mistakes happen, I learned from this one and need to come up with a quick solution. Sometimes that is the best way to learn about life and about yourself, you need to fall on your face, scrape up your knees, trudge through the mud and then wash yourself off and hit the ground running all over again.
Well I'm running, hell, I'm sprinting full speed ahead in to the unknown and I'm not looking back. There's part of me that thinks the universe is trying to tell me something here... maybe I am not in the right field I need to be in. The tarot card lady at my Mom's birthday party did say I need to 'do what I love'. Well, that's a great question. What do I love?
I'm an Aquarius, this in turn means I love a lot of things. I need to narrow down this list and really hone in on what makes me tick. I won't lie, I prefer something in the creative field, but I'm not patient enough to live the life of a poor artist/writer/whatever. I want an income and I want it NOW. I have had a summer job at the very least every year of my life since I was 15 years old. This is no joke. Both of my parents raised me with a good work ethic, because they worked their asses off to provide for my sister and I.
This is something I strive for. I don't give up. Yes, I get emo,bitchy, cranky, whatever... but that's because I'm hard on myself. I over analyze and want to improve everyday. When I step out of an interview I continually ask myself 'what did I say that would convince them to hire me?', 'Would I hire me?', 'Would you?'. I run this back and forth and back and forth again in my head. When I am rejected from the position (which happens more often than not) I ask them why I wasn't selected. The generic response? 'You didn't have enough experience'.
What the hell does that mean? Does that mean I didn't come across as confident enough to you? Does that mean you didn't like my attitude when I walked in? (I made you laugh, didn't I?), Does that mean you already passed judgement on what my qualifications are based on my previous positions because they had nothing to do with this one? I do my damndest to play up what I have and how it can benefit whichever company I am applying for at the time. What more do these folks want? My kidney? Well take one.. I only need one anyway!!!
Just kidding about my kidney. I would like to keep all of my organs intact thankyouverymuch.
Lately I have been thinking of getting back in to theater again. :) I would love to take some acting classes, but without an income to pay for them... I don't see that panning out very well. Maybe with some Xmas/birthday money from relatives I can save up and plot something. I need to let the steam off, get all of my frustrations off my chest. I think if I can learn to be someone else for a day it would benefit my psyche. Seriously.
And on that note... I'm done for today.
Back to job apps and square one it is.
(I should go in to acting, those folks are never guaranteed a gig... look at my past, NEITHER AM I).
And, that's all she wrote.
I am currently unemployed at the moment. It is not the best position to be in, but it could be a lot worse and sometimes I forget that. I've been laid off twice this year and just trudging along through it with my head barely above chin level some days.
Why is it so difficult to keep a damn job these days? It's outright unacceptable. There are families out there struggling to keep their homes and what are the banks and the big wigs doing about it? From the ground I don't see much changing. Homes are in foreclosure, parents are losing jobs (either laid off or fired), this shouldn't be happening. What happened to the days of yore when we had a thriving economy where jobs were plentiful and accessible to anyone of any background?
We need to get back there somehow. I hope President Obama can aide us in this venture, I have hope that change will happen, but it just won't happen for some time yet. I know people are impatient. I am impatient. Believe it or not, I had plans after college, there were things I wanted to do, places I wanted to live, and independence I couldn't wait to gain.
What is that quote? Life is 80% what happens to you, and 20% what you take from it and do with it. Maybe it's wrong, but what does it matter? Things are thrown at you, and you have to adjust or come up with an alternative plan and move on from there. Recently, I applied for unemployment insurance and I hope I am accepted. I answered a key question incorrectly in the application process and was paid 2 DAYS AFTER I was laid off. I'm not sure how much it complicate things, but from the looks of it, I will either be denied or delayed to receive my claim benefits. I have an 'appeal interview' coming up next week, and I am going to plead my case to the best of my abilities. After all, I worked for this money at companies and jobs that I didn't 'LOVE' by any means. Still, I busted my ass, showed up to work with an eager attitude, and this is what I get in return? Fancy that.
I hope IDES can work with me on this, but we'll see. There are procedures I'm sure they have to follow on their end. I am only a number as far as they're concerned. Mistakes happen, I learned from this one and need to come up with a quick solution. Sometimes that is the best way to learn about life and about yourself, you need to fall on your face, scrape up your knees, trudge through the mud and then wash yourself off and hit the ground running all over again.
Well I'm running, hell, I'm sprinting full speed ahead in to the unknown and I'm not looking back. There's part of me that thinks the universe is trying to tell me something here... maybe I am not in the right field I need to be in. The tarot card lady at my Mom's birthday party did say I need to 'do what I love'. Well, that's a great question. What do I love?
I'm an Aquarius, this in turn means I love a lot of things. I need to narrow down this list and really hone in on what makes me tick. I won't lie, I prefer something in the creative field, but I'm not patient enough to live the life of a poor artist/writer/whatever. I want an income and I want it NOW. I have had a summer job at the very least every year of my life since I was 15 years old. This is no joke. Both of my parents raised me with a good work ethic, because they worked their asses off to provide for my sister and I.
This is something I strive for. I don't give up. Yes, I get emo,bitchy, cranky, whatever... but that's because I'm hard on myself. I over analyze and want to improve everyday. When I step out of an interview I continually ask myself 'what did I say that would convince them to hire me?', 'Would I hire me?', 'Would you?'. I run this back and forth and back and forth again in my head. When I am rejected from the position (which happens more often than not) I ask them why I wasn't selected. The generic response? 'You didn't have enough experience'.
What the hell does that mean? Does that mean I didn't come across as confident enough to you? Does that mean you didn't like my attitude when I walked in? (I made you laugh, didn't I?), Does that mean you already passed judgement on what my qualifications are based on my previous positions because they had nothing to do with this one? I do my damndest to play up what I have and how it can benefit whichever company I am applying for at the time. What more do these folks want? My kidney? Well take one.. I only need one anyway!!!
Just kidding about my kidney. I would like to keep all of my organs intact thankyouverymuch.
Lately I have been thinking of getting back in to theater again. :) I would love to take some acting classes, but without an income to pay for them... I don't see that panning out very well. Maybe with some Xmas/birthday money from relatives I can save up and plot something. I need to let the steam off, get all of my frustrations off my chest. I think if I can learn to be someone else for a day it would benefit my psyche. Seriously.
And on that note... I'm done for today.
Back to job apps and square one it is.
(I should go in to acting, those folks are never guaranteed a gig... look at my past, NEITHER AM I).
And, that's all she wrote.
And So It Is....
Time to write, time to think, time to do a lot of things with this here blogger.
I am currently unemployed at the moment. It is not the best position to be in, but it could be a lot worse and sometimes I forget that. I've been laid off twice this year and just trudging along through it with my head barely above chin level some days.
Why is it so difficult to keep a damn job these days? It's outright unacceptable. There are families out there struggling to keep their homes and what are the banks and the big wigs doing about it? From the ground I don't see much changing. Homes are in foreclosure, parents are losing jobs (either laid off or fired), this shouldn't be happening. What happened to the days of yore when we had a thriving economy where jobs were plentiful and accessible to anyone of any background?
We need to get back there somehow. I hope President Obama can aide us in this venture, I have hope that change will happen, but it just won't happen for some time yet. I know people are impatient. I am impatient. Believe it or not, I had plans after college, there were things I wanted to do, places I wanted to live, and independence I couldn't wait to gain.
What is that quote? Life is 80% what happens to you, and 20% what you take from it and do with it. Maybe it's wrong, but what does it matter? Things are thrown at you, and you have to adjust or come up with an alternative plan and move on from there. Recently, I applied for unemployment insurance and I hope I am accepted. I answered a key question incorrectly in the application process and was paid 2 DAYS AFTER I was laid off. I'm not sure how much it complicate things, but from the looks of it, I will either be denied or delayed to receive my claim benefits. I have an 'appeal interview' coming up next week, and I am going to plead my case to the best of my abilities. After all, I worked for this money at companies and jobs that I didn't 'LOVE' by any means. Still, I busted my ass, showed up to work with an eager attitude, and this is what I get in return? Fancy that.
I hope IDES can work with me on this, but we'll see. There are procedures I'm sure they have to follow on their end. I am only a number as far as they're concerned. Mistakes happen, I learned from this one and need to come up with a quick solution. Sometimes that is the best way to learn about life and about yourself, you need to fall on your face, scrape up your knees, trudge through the mud and then wash yourself off and hit the ground running all over again.
Well I'm running, hell, I'm sprinting full speed ahead in to the unknown and I'm not looking back. There's part of me that thinks the universe is trying to tell me something here... maybe I am not in the right field I need to be in. The tarot card lady at my Mom's birthday party did say I need to 'do what I love'. Well, that's a great question. What do I love?
I'm an Aquarius, this in turn means I love a lot of things. I need to narrow down this list and really hone in on what makes me tick. I won't lie, I prefer something in the creative field, but I'm not patient enough to live the life of a poor artist/writer/whatever. I want an income and I want it NOW. I have had a summer job at the very least every year of my life since I was 15 years old. This is no joke. Both of my parents raised me with a good work ethic, because they worked their asses off to provide for my sister and I.
This is something I strive for. I don't give up. Yes, I get emo,bitchy, cranky, whatever... but that's because I'm hard on myself. I over analyze and want to improve everyday. When I step out of an interview I continually ask myself 'what did I say that would convince them to hire me?', 'Would I hire me?', 'Would you?'. I run this back and forth and back and forth again in my head. When I am rejected from the position (which happens more often than not) I ask them why I wasn't selected. The generic response? 'You didn't have enough experience'.
What the hell does that mean? Does that mean I didn't come across as confident enough to you? Does that mean you didn't like my attitude when I walked in? (I made you laugh, didn't I?), Does that mean you already passed judgement on what my qualifications are based on my previous positions because they had nothing to do with this one? I do my damndest to play up what I have and how it can benefit whichever company I am applying for at the time. What more do these folks want? My kidney? Well take one.. I only need one anyway!!!
Just kidding about my kidney. I would like to keep all of my organs intact thankyouverymuch.
Lately I have been thinking of getting back in to theater again. :) I would love to take some acting classes, but without an income to pay for them... I don't see that panning out very well. Maybe with some Xmas/birthday money from relatives I can save up and plot something. I need to let the steam off, get all of my frustrations off my chest. I think if I can learn to be someone else for a day it would benefit my psyche. Seriously.
And on that note... I'm done for today.
Back to job apps and square one it is.
(I should go in to acting, those folks are never guaranteed a gig... look at my past, NEITHER AM I).
And, that's all she wrote.
I am currently unemployed at the moment. It is not the best position to be in, but it could be a lot worse and sometimes I forget that. I've been laid off twice this year and just trudging along through it with my head barely above chin level some days.
Why is it so difficult to keep a damn job these days? It's outright unacceptable. There are families out there struggling to keep their homes and what are the banks and the big wigs doing about it? From the ground I don't see much changing. Homes are in foreclosure, parents are losing jobs (either laid off or fired), this shouldn't be happening. What happened to the days of yore when we had a thriving economy where jobs were plentiful and accessible to anyone of any background?
We need to get back there somehow. I hope President Obama can aide us in this venture, I have hope that change will happen, but it just won't happen for some time yet. I know people are impatient. I am impatient. Believe it or not, I had plans after college, there were things I wanted to do, places I wanted to live, and independence I couldn't wait to gain.
What is that quote? Life is 80% what happens to you, and 20% what you take from it and do with it. Maybe it's wrong, but what does it matter? Things are thrown at you, and you have to adjust or come up with an alternative plan and move on from there. Recently, I applied for unemployment insurance and I hope I am accepted. I answered a key question incorrectly in the application process and was paid 2 DAYS AFTER I was laid off. I'm not sure how much it complicate things, but from the looks of it, I will either be denied or delayed to receive my claim benefits. I have an 'appeal interview' coming up next week, and I am going to plead my case to the best of my abilities. After all, I worked for this money at companies and jobs that I didn't 'LOVE' by any means. Still, I busted my ass, showed up to work with an eager attitude, and this is what I get in return? Fancy that.
I hope IDES can work with me on this, but we'll see. There are procedures I'm sure they have to follow on their end. I am only a number as far as they're concerned. Mistakes happen, I learned from this one and need to come up with a quick solution. Sometimes that is the best way to learn about life and about yourself, you need to fall on your face, scrape up your knees, trudge through the mud and then wash yourself off and hit the ground running all over again.
Well I'm running, hell, I'm sprinting full speed ahead in to the unknown and I'm not looking back. There's part of me that thinks the universe is trying to tell me something here... maybe I am not in the right field I need to be in. The tarot card lady at my Mom's birthday party did say I need to 'do what I love'. Well, that's a great question. What do I love?
I'm an Aquarius, this in turn means I love a lot of things. I need to narrow down this list and really hone in on what makes me tick. I won't lie, I prefer something in the creative field, but I'm not patient enough to live the life of a poor artist/writer/whatever. I want an income and I want it NOW. I have had a summer job at the very least every year of my life since I was 15 years old. This is no joke. Both of my parents raised me with a good work ethic, because they worked their asses off to provide for my sister and I.
This is something I strive for. I don't give up. Yes, I get emo,bitchy, cranky, whatever... but that's because I'm hard on myself. I over analyze and want to improve everyday. When I step out of an interview I continually ask myself 'what did I say that would convince them to hire me?', 'Would I hire me?', 'Would you?'. I run this back and forth and back and forth again in my head. When I am rejected from the position (which happens more often than not) I ask them why I wasn't selected. The generic response? 'You didn't have enough experience'.
What the hell does that mean? Does that mean I didn't come across as confident enough to you? Does that mean you didn't like my attitude when I walked in? (I made you laugh, didn't I?), Does that mean you already passed judgement on what my qualifications are based on my previous positions because they had nothing to do with this one? I do my damndest to play up what I have and how it can benefit whichever company I am applying for at the time. What more do these folks want? My kidney? Well take one.. I only need one anyway!!!
Just kidding about my kidney. I would like to keep all of my organs intact thankyouverymuch.
Lately I have been thinking of getting back in to theater again. :) I would love to take some acting classes, but without an income to pay for them... I don't see that panning out very well. Maybe with some Xmas/birthday money from relatives I can save up and plot something. I need to let the steam off, get all of my frustrations off my chest. I think if I can learn to be someone else for a day it would benefit my psyche. Seriously.
And on that note... I'm done for today.
Back to job apps and square one it is.
(I should go in to acting, those folks are never guaranteed a gig... look at my past, NEITHER AM I).
And, that's all she wrote.
Thursday, November 8, 2012
It's Been Awhile
Wow.
I just don't write anymore and that makes me pretty sad. :( I've become rather lazy as of late. As a customer service representative for a wedding album company, dealing with coworkers and customers for 40 hours a week really does take a toll on me. Literally, I come home after 430pm and sleep on the couch til about 9pm, then I wake up for 2 more hours and then go back to sleep for good. Such a life I know it.
I need to do more with my life. But, I constantly make excuses that naturally prevent me from doing so. What's my excuse for today? The weather. It is fall. The cold, damp, fall just before winter has arrived and I hate it. I miss the cool, brisk, autumn air with orange, yellow, and red leaves lining my streets. It was as if life in the form of fire burst from their stems and lit the way. Now, they are barren beings that scrape against the steel sky. I told you, cold weather needs to suck it.
What can I update whoever reads and also doesn't read this? Hrm. My Mom and I saw Theresa Caputo live at the Genessee Theater in Waukegan last Sunday and it was truly an amazing experience. :) I don't know what I think about this life, let alone the after life, but I know something is there waiting for us. Not golden gates and angels dressed in white, but we are all made of energy. I just happen to think this energy continues on long after we leave our physical bodies. Do I believe people can talk to the dead? Well, after her show, yes, now I do. I have always believed in ghosts, spirits, demons, all of it. Why not? Who can say it isn't real? I find it all fascinating.
Theresa Caputo is a phenomenon. She read people and shocked them in to tears. I don't think these folks were actors. Not the way they were crying and reacting to her comments. Their stories were awful. It really puts things into perspective. It did for me. I thought losing my Yia Yia and my Dad 3 months apart from each other in 2009 was bad enough. But these poor people lost family members to unsolved murders, suicides, accidental death, illness, etc. Some could not find closure and if one woman can say one personal, completely unknown thing that the rest of the world will not know... and it makes someone feel better? If it brings them the peace they need to know their loved one although no longer with them in this plane of existence is ok somewhere else? I don't really care. That's good enough for me.
I adore the woman. :) Her Jersey tough attitude and her sparkly silver Minolo heels reeled me in. She is a force to be reckoned with that's for sure. I would love to have a private reading with her. Not only to test her to see if she is the 'real deal' but maybe to find my own closure. Yes, my Dad left this earth well loved by his family for sure. But there are still days where I am haunted by his passing. I assume this is naturally all a part of grieving, and I've read over and over again everyone does it in their own way.
What else? Well, this week was pretty big. The Northeast had an awful super storm tear up the Jersey Shore as well as significant towns in New York State. She was called 'Hurricane Sandy' and the bitch packed a punch. Some lost their lives, some lost their homes, and some lost so much more than that the week she ravaged the coast. I have never seen a storm like that before. I can't help but think it means something else. We are damaging this planet in more ways than one and destroying the climate. Is this part of it? I think so. Storms lately have been insane. They are far more violent and take far more casualties than I can recall. It's our own fault.... that's for sure. Everybody needs to donate to these folks out there. They need it. I wish I could donate more. Next paycheck and I think I will. :)
President Obama (my vote included) has been elected for a 2nd term to serve this great United States. I couldn't be more proud of our country and the people for making the absolute right decision. I know the economy has a long way to go, but the POTUS came in to office at the worst possible time. I hope in the next four years he is able to restore jobs back to the families that have been out of work for so long. Back to the people that really need it the most. I believe he can do it. :) President Obama is an inspirational leader, and I can't wait to see what he will do for all of us. :)
My Mom had a Halloween party for her birthday this year and it rocked. :) It really cheered her up and that is all my sister, aunt, and I want for her. We want to keep her happy and in good spirits every year for the rest of her birthdays. October is a very rough month for my family. So any little drop of happiness if we can find it, we hold on to it. For sure.
Ok, I'm getting tired now. I am coming down with my 2nd sinus infection for the year, I can feel it in my head and in my face. My brain literally feels heavy. Fun shit, I know.
Bed time soon enough.
Another day of whiners awaits me. One day I will be where I am supposed to be. Wherever that is the big man upstairs only knows.
I just don't write anymore and that makes me pretty sad. :( I've become rather lazy as of late. As a customer service representative for a wedding album company, dealing with coworkers and customers for 40 hours a week really does take a toll on me. Literally, I come home after 430pm and sleep on the couch til about 9pm, then I wake up for 2 more hours and then go back to sleep for good. Such a life I know it.
I need to do more with my life. But, I constantly make excuses that naturally prevent me from doing so. What's my excuse for today? The weather. It is fall. The cold, damp, fall just before winter has arrived and I hate it. I miss the cool, brisk, autumn air with orange, yellow, and red leaves lining my streets. It was as if life in the form of fire burst from their stems and lit the way. Now, they are barren beings that scrape against the steel sky. I told you, cold weather needs to suck it.
What can I update whoever reads and also doesn't read this? Hrm. My Mom and I saw Theresa Caputo live at the Genessee Theater in Waukegan last Sunday and it was truly an amazing experience. :) I don't know what I think about this life, let alone the after life, but I know something is there waiting for us. Not golden gates and angels dressed in white, but we are all made of energy. I just happen to think this energy continues on long after we leave our physical bodies. Do I believe people can talk to the dead? Well, after her show, yes, now I do. I have always believed in ghosts, spirits, demons, all of it. Why not? Who can say it isn't real? I find it all fascinating.
Theresa Caputo is a phenomenon. She read people and shocked them in to tears. I don't think these folks were actors. Not the way they were crying and reacting to her comments. Their stories were awful. It really puts things into perspective. It did for me. I thought losing my Yia Yia and my Dad 3 months apart from each other in 2009 was bad enough. But these poor people lost family members to unsolved murders, suicides, accidental death, illness, etc. Some could not find closure and if one woman can say one personal, completely unknown thing that the rest of the world will not know... and it makes someone feel better? If it brings them the peace they need to know their loved one although no longer with them in this plane of existence is ok somewhere else? I don't really care. That's good enough for me.
I adore the woman. :) Her Jersey tough attitude and her sparkly silver Minolo heels reeled me in. She is a force to be reckoned with that's for sure. I would love to have a private reading with her. Not only to test her to see if she is the 'real deal' but maybe to find my own closure. Yes, my Dad left this earth well loved by his family for sure. But there are still days where I am haunted by his passing. I assume this is naturally all a part of grieving, and I've read over and over again everyone does it in their own way.
What else? Well, this week was pretty big. The Northeast had an awful super storm tear up the Jersey Shore as well as significant towns in New York State. She was called 'Hurricane Sandy' and the bitch packed a punch. Some lost their lives, some lost their homes, and some lost so much more than that the week she ravaged the coast. I have never seen a storm like that before. I can't help but think it means something else. We are damaging this planet in more ways than one and destroying the climate. Is this part of it? I think so. Storms lately have been insane. They are far more violent and take far more casualties than I can recall. It's our own fault.... that's for sure. Everybody needs to donate to these folks out there. They need it. I wish I could donate more. Next paycheck and I think I will. :)
President Obama (my vote included) has been elected for a 2nd term to serve this great United States. I couldn't be more proud of our country and the people for making the absolute right decision. I know the economy has a long way to go, but the POTUS came in to office at the worst possible time. I hope in the next four years he is able to restore jobs back to the families that have been out of work for so long. Back to the people that really need it the most. I believe he can do it. :) President Obama is an inspirational leader, and I can't wait to see what he will do for all of us. :)
My Mom had a Halloween party for her birthday this year and it rocked. :) It really cheered her up and that is all my sister, aunt, and I want for her. We want to keep her happy and in good spirits every year for the rest of her birthdays. October is a very rough month for my family. So any little drop of happiness if we can find it, we hold on to it. For sure.
Ok, I'm getting tired now. I am coming down with my 2nd sinus infection for the year, I can feel it in my head and in my face. My brain literally feels heavy. Fun shit, I know.
Bed time soon enough.
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| Theresa Caputo- 'The Bigger the Hair, the Closer to God' |
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| The POTUS, The FLOTUS, and family :) |
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| My wonderful family for my Mama's birthday. |
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| My ISU gurls and boy- Tabitha (Little Red Riding Hood), Wes (Blind Ref), and Amanda (Hippie Girl) all made it |
It's Been Awhile
Wow.
I just don't write anymore and that makes me pretty sad. :( I've become rather lazy as of late. As a customer service representative for a wedding album company, dealing with coworkers and customers for 40 hours a week really does take a toll on me. Literally, I come home after 430pm and sleep on the couch til about 9pm, then I wake up for 2 more hours and then go back to sleep for good. Such a life I know it.
I need to do more with my life. But, I constantly make excuses that naturally prevent me from doing so. What's my excuse for today? The weather. It is fall. The cold, damp, fall just before winter has arrived and I hate it. I miss the cool, brisk, autumn air with orange, yellow, and red leaves lining my streets. It was as if life in the form of fire burst from their stems and lit the way. Now, they are barren beings that scrape against the steel sky. I told you, cold weather needs to suck it.
What can I update whoever reads and also doesn't read this? Hrm. My Mom and I saw Theresa Caputo live at the Genessee Theater in Waukegan last Sunday and it was truly an amazing experience. :) I don't know what I think about this life, let alone the after life, but I know something is there waiting for us. Not golden gates and angels dressed in white, but we are all made of energy. I just happen to think this energy continues on long after we leave our physical bodies. Do I believe people can talk to the dead? Well, after her show, yes, now I do. I have always believed in ghosts, spirits, demons, all of it. Why not? Who can say it isn't real? I find it all fascinating.
Theresa Caputo is a phenomenon. She read people and shocked them in to tears. I don't think these folks were actors. Not the way they were crying and reacting to her comments. Their stories were awful. It really puts things into perspective. It did for me. I thought losing my Yia Yia and my Dad 3 months apart from each other in 2009 was bad enough. But these poor people lost family members to unsolved murders, suicides, accidental death, illness, etc. Some could not find closure and if one woman can say one personal, completely unknown thing that the rest of the world will not know... and it makes someone feel better? If it brings them the peace they need to know their loved one although no longer with them in this plane of existence is ok somewhere else? I don't really care. That's good enough for me.
I adore the woman. :) Her Jersey tough attitude and her sparkly silver Minolo heels reeled me in. She is a force to be reckoned with that's for sure. I would love to have a private reading with her. Not only to test her to see if she is the 'real deal' but maybe to find my own closure. Yes, my Dad left this earth well loved by his family for sure. But there are still days where I am haunted by his passing. I assume this is naturally all a part of grieving, and I've read over and over again everyone does it in their own way.
What else? Well, this week was pretty big. The Northeast had an awful super storm tear up the Jersey Shore as well as significant towns in New York State. She was called 'Hurricane Sandy' and the bitch packed a punch. Some lost their lives, some lost their homes, and some lost so much more than that the week she ravaged the coast. I have never seen a storm like that before. I can't help but think it means something else. We are damaging this planet in more ways than one and destroying the climate. Is this part of it? I think so. Storms lately have been insane. They are far more violent and take far more casualties than I can recall. It's our own fault.... that's for sure. Everybody needs to donate to these folks out there. They need it. I wish I could donate more. Next paycheck and I think I will. :)
President Obama (my vote included) has been elected for a 2nd term to serve this great United States. I couldn't be more proud of our country and the people for making the absolute right decision. I know the economy has a long way to go, but the POTUS came in to office at the worst possible time. I hope in the next four years he is able to restore jobs back to the families that have been out of work for so long. Back to the people that really need it the most. I believe he can do it. :) President Obama is an inspirational leader, and I can't wait to see what he will do for all of us. :)
My Mom had a Halloween party for her birthday this year and it rocked. :) It really cheered her up and that is all my sister, aunt, and I want for her. We want to keep her happy and in good spirits every year for the rest of her birthdays. October is a very rough month for my family. So any little drop of happiness if we can find it, we hold on to it. For sure.
Ok, I'm getting tired now. I am coming down with my 2nd sinus infection for the year, I can feel it in my head and in my face. My brain literally feels heavy. Fun shit, I know.
Bed time soon enough.
Another day of whiners awaits me. One day I will be where I am supposed to be. Wherever that is the big man upstairs only knows.
I just don't write anymore and that makes me pretty sad. :( I've become rather lazy as of late. As a customer service representative for a wedding album company, dealing with coworkers and customers for 40 hours a week really does take a toll on me. Literally, I come home after 430pm and sleep on the couch til about 9pm, then I wake up for 2 more hours and then go back to sleep for good. Such a life I know it.
I need to do more with my life. But, I constantly make excuses that naturally prevent me from doing so. What's my excuse for today? The weather. It is fall. The cold, damp, fall just before winter has arrived and I hate it. I miss the cool, brisk, autumn air with orange, yellow, and red leaves lining my streets. It was as if life in the form of fire burst from their stems and lit the way. Now, they are barren beings that scrape against the steel sky. I told you, cold weather needs to suck it.
What can I update whoever reads and also doesn't read this? Hrm. My Mom and I saw Theresa Caputo live at the Genessee Theater in Waukegan last Sunday and it was truly an amazing experience. :) I don't know what I think about this life, let alone the after life, but I know something is there waiting for us. Not golden gates and angels dressed in white, but we are all made of energy. I just happen to think this energy continues on long after we leave our physical bodies. Do I believe people can talk to the dead? Well, after her show, yes, now I do. I have always believed in ghosts, spirits, demons, all of it. Why not? Who can say it isn't real? I find it all fascinating.
Theresa Caputo is a phenomenon. She read people and shocked them in to tears. I don't think these folks were actors. Not the way they were crying and reacting to her comments. Their stories were awful. It really puts things into perspective. It did for me. I thought losing my Yia Yia and my Dad 3 months apart from each other in 2009 was bad enough. But these poor people lost family members to unsolved murders, suicides, accidental death, illness, etc. Some could not find closure and if one woman can say one personal, completely unknown thing that the rest of the world will not know... and it makes someone feel better? If it brings them the peace they need to know their loved one although no longer with them in this plane of existence is ok somewhere else? I don't really care. That's good enough for me.
I adore the woman. :) Her Jersey tough attitude and her sparkly silver Minolo heels reeled me in. She is a force to be reckoned with that's for sure. I would love to have a private reading with her. Not only to test her to see if she is the 'real deal' but maybe to find my own closure. Yes, my Dad left this earth well loved by his family for sure. But there are still days where I am haunted by his passing. I assume this is naturally all a part of grieving, and I've read over and over again everyone does it in their own way.
What else? Well, this week was pretty big. The Northeast had an awful super storm tear up the Jersey Shore as well as significant towns in New York State. She was called 'Hurricane Sandy' and the bitch packed a punch. Some lost their lives, some lost their homes, and some lost so much more than that the week she ravaged the coast. I have never seen a storm like that before. I can't help but think it means something else. We are damaging this planet in more ways than one and destroying the climate. Is this part of it? I think so. Storms lately have been insane. They are far more violent and take far more casualties than I can recall. It's our own fault.... that's for sure. Everybody needs to donate to these folks out there. They need it. I wish I could donate more. Next paycheck and I think I will. :)
President Obama (my vote included) has been elected for a 2nd term to serve this great United States. I couldn't be more proud of our country and the people for making the absolute right decision. I know the economy has a long way to go, but the POTUS came in to office at the worst possible time. I hope in the next four years he is able to restore jobs back to the families that have been out of work for so long. Back to the people that really need it the most. I believe he can do it. :) President Obama is an inspirational leader, and I can't wait to see what he will do for all of us. :)
My Mom had a Halloween party for her birthday this year and it rocked. :) It really cheered her up and that is all my sister, aunt, and I want for her. We want to keep her happy and in good spirits every year for the rest of her birthdays. October is a very rough month for my family. So any little drop of happiness if we can find it, we hold on to it. For sure.
Ok, I'm getting tired now. I am coming down with my 2nd sinus infection for the year, I can feel it in my head and in my face. My brain literally feels heavy. Fun shit, I know.
Bed time soon enough.
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| Theresa Caputo- 'The Bigger the Hair, the Closer to God' |
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| The POTUS, The FLOTUS, and family :) |
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| My wonderful family for my Mama's birthday. |
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| My ISU gurls and boy- Tabitha (Little Red Riding Hood), Wes (Blind Ref), and Amanda (Hippie Girl) all made it |
Tuesday, June 5, 2012
A Wedding and A Graduation
Hey folks, not sure if anyone reads this, but whatever.. I felt like blogging tonight.... so... now, I am. I recently went through the toenail surgery I posted on a few weeks ago... it was actually postponed after my friend's wedding. I had the surgery May 29th, and I won't lie.. it sucked ass. I took a special 'relaxation pill' to quell my fear/anxiety of the needles about to enter the bones of my toe and foot. :( My sister also stayed in the room with me.... which I appreciated greatly. She could tell from my shaking arms how petrified I was of the pain about to hit. Even though it made her nauseous... she stayed. And, I love her for it. :) I now have half of my left big toenail gone.. it looks disgusting.. and will probably take some time to heal fully. I hope I can wear cute sandals/heels this summer... maybe I will once I feel less self conscious about my wound. We'll see.
My wonderful friend Sara married her high school sweetheart, Ethan- Memorial Day weekend. :) I couldn't be happier for those two. They finally tied the knot after dating for a total of 8 years. Are you kidding me? After a few months I start to feel claustrophobic in relationships.. and they manage to keep the honeymoon phase going before and most likely after the actual honeymoon itself. They are disgusting... hahaha.. but, in a good way. The lovey dovey thing I could never imagine feeling for anyone else... I show love in a different way. But, I cried when I saw my high school drama buddy in her beautiful white off the shoulder dress. She looked magnificent. The make up and the happy 'glow' brides seem to bestow on their special day played a big part in it all I'm sure. There is nothing more rewarding then feeling happiness for someone else. It is a great feeling to step outside of your own selfish thoughts and feelings... and wish the best for friends, family, and others that you deeply care about. As a self proclaimed cynic on love itself.... I guess there is hope for some of us after all. And, these two certainly proved it. I was honored to participate in the wedding as her bridesmaid. It was my first time after all! :) Although, it was an expensive venture... still worth it never the less.
What else do I have to report on? Well, I now started full time with the company I was originally temping for as just a measly receptionist. I am now a customer service representative.... yet again. So far so good... I have been training for the last couple of weeks and just received my computer today. Of course, none of the programs I need to do my job actually work... so, I'm still behind and need to find alternative ways to catch up fast. That's life I guess. I'm just glad that this position will eventually do more for me than any other I've held in the past. After my 60 day probation period is up... I qualify for benefits. And, once I turn 26 this year... that's something very important to consider. For serious. I am still super grateful to Obama for allowing me to stay on my Mom's health insurance plan for as long as I possibly could. My health took a serious decline since my Dad passed.... for obvious reasons... and I'm slowly getting better and learning how to eat right and take care of myself more. You only get one life and one body to live it in.... so appreciate it all.
My little sister also graduated from the University of Illinois with a Bachelor of Science in Architecture. :) We are all so proud of her, she also maintained an outstanding GPA and graduated as a National Scholar. She was accepted into the Master's Program for Architecture Studies at U of I and will return this fall for her first year as a master's student. If my Dad could just see her now.... he would be so, so, very proud of his youngest daughter. <3
Enjoy a few pictures from the wedding and my sister's graduation. You didn't think I would put any up of my toe did you? Hahahaha..... no, that would be nasty.
That's all she wrote.
My wonderful friend Sara married her high school sweetheart, Ethan- Memorial Day weekend. :) I couldn't be happier for those two. They finally tied the knot after dating for a total of 8 years. Are you kidding me? After a few months I start to feel claustrophobic in relationships.. and they manage to keep the honeymoon phase going before and most likely after the actual honeymoon itself. They are disgusting... hahaha.. but, in a good way. The lovey dovey thing I could never imagine feeling for anyone else... I show love in a different way. But, I cried when I saw my high school drama buddy in her beautiful white off the shoulder dress. She looked magnificent. The make up and the happy 'glow' brides seem to bestow on their special day played a big part in it all I'm sure. There is nothing more rewarding then feeling happiness for someone else. It is a great feeling to step outside of your own selfish thoughts and feelings... and wish the best for friends, family, and others that you deeply care about. As a self proclaimed cynic on love itself.... I guess there is hope for some of us after all. And, these two certainly proved it. I was honored to participate in the wedding as her bridesmaid. It was my first time after all! :) Although, it was an expensive venture... still worth it never the less.
What else do I have to report on? Well, I now started full time with the company I was originally temping for as just a measly receptionist. I am now a customer service representative.... yet again. So far so good... I have been training for the last couple of weeks and just received my computer today. Of course, none of the programs I need to do my job actually work... so, I'm still behind and need to find alternative ways to catch up fast. That's life I guess. I'm just glad that this position will eventually do more for me than any other I've held in the past. After my 60 day probation period is up... I qualify for benefits. And, once I turn 26 this year... that's something very important to consider. For serious. I am still super grateful to Obama for allowing me to stay on my Mom's health insurance plan for as long as I possibly could. My health took a serious decline since my Dad passed.... for obvious reasons... and I'm slowly getting better and learning how to eat right and take care of myself more. You only get one life and one body to live it in.... so appreciate it all.
My little sister also graduated from the University of Illinois with a Bachelor of Science in Architecture. :) We are all so proud of her, she also maintained an outstanding GPA and graduated as a National Scholar. She was accepted into the Master's Program for Architecture Studies at U of I and will return this fall for her first year as a master's student. If my Dad could just see her now.... he would be so, so, very proud of his youngest daughter. <3
That's all she wrote.
A Wedding and A Graduation
Hey folks, not sure if anyone reads this, but whatever.. I felt like blogging tonight.... so... now, I am. I recently went through the toenail surgery I posted on a few weeks ago... it was actually postponed after my friend's wedding. I had the surgery May 29th, and I won't lie.. it sucked ass. I took a special 'relaxation pill' to quell my fear/anxiety of the needles about to enter the bones of my toe and foot. :( My sister also stayed in the room with me.... which I appreciated greatly. She could tell from my shaking arms how petrified I was of the pain about to hit. Even though it made her nauseous... she stayed. And, I love her for it. :) I now have half of my left big toenail gone.. it looks disgusting.. and will probably take some time to heal fully. I hope I can wear cute sandals/heels this summer... maybe I will once I feel less self conscious about my wound. We'll see.
My wonderful friend Sara married her high school sweetheart, Ethan- Memorial Day weekend. :) I couldn't be happier for those two. They finally tied the knot after dating for a total of 8 years. Are you kidding me? After a few months I start to feel claustrophobic in relationships.. and they manage to keep the honeymoon phase going before and most likely after the actual honeymoon itself. They are disgusting... hahaha.. but, in a good way. The lovey dovey thing I could never imagine feeling for anyone else... I show love in a different way. But, I cried when I saw my high school drama buddy in her beautiful white off the shoulder dress. She looked magnificent. The make up and the happy 'glow' brides seem to bestow on their special day played a big part in it all I'm sure. There is nothing more rewarding then feeling happiness for someone else. It is a great feeling to step outside of your own selfish thoughts and feelings... and wish the best for friends, family, and others that you deeply care about. As a self proclaimed cynic on love itself.... I guess there is hope for some of us after all. And, these two certainly proved it. I was honored to participate in the wedding as her bridesmaid. It was my first time after all! :) Although, it was an expensive venture... still worth it never the less.
What else do I have to report on? Well, I now started full time with the company I was originally temping for as just a measly receptionist. I am now a customer service representative.... yet again. So far so good... I have been training for the last couple of weeks and just received my computer today. Of course, none of the programs I need to do my job actually work... so, I'm still behind and need to find alternative ways to catch up fast. That's life I guess. I'm just glad that this position will eventually do more for me than any other I've held in the past. After my 60 day probation period is up... I qualify for benefits. And, once I turn 26 this year... that's something very important to consider. For serious. I am still super grateful to Obama for allowing me to stay on my Mom's health insurance plan for as long as I possibly could. My health took a serious decline since my Dad passed.... for obvious reasons... and I'm slowly getting better and learning how to eat right and take care of myself more. You only get one life and one body to live it in.... so appreciate it all.
My little sister also graduated from the University of Illinois with a Bachelor of Science in Architecture. :) We are all so proud of her, she also maintained an outstanding GPA and graduated as a National Scholar. She was accepted into the Master's Program for Architecture Studies at U of I and will return this fall for her first year as a master's student. If my Dad could just see her now.... he would be so, so, very proud of his youngest daughter. <3
Enjoy a few pictures from the wedding and my sister's graduation. You didn't think I would put any up of my toe did you? Hahahaha..... no, that would be nasty.
That's all she wrote.
My wonderful friend Sara married her high school sweetheart, Ethan- Memorial Day weekend. :) I couldn't be happier for those two. They finally tied the knot after dating for a total of 8 years. Are you kidding me? After a few months I start to feel claustrophobic in relationships.. and they manage to keep the honeymoon phase going before and most likely after the actual honeymoon itself. They are disgusting... hahaha.. but, in a good way. The lovey dovey thing I could never imagine feeling for anyone else... I show love in a different way. But, I cried when I saw my high school drama buddy in her beautiful white off the shoulder dress. She looked magnificent. The make up and the happy 'glow' brides seem to bestow on their special day played a big part in it all I'm sure. There is nothing more rewarding then feeling happiness for someone else. It is a great feeling to step outside of your own selfish thoughts and feelings... and wish the best for friends, family, and others that you deeply care about. As a self proclaimed cynic on love itself.... I guess there is hope for some of us after all. And, these two certainly proved it. I was honored to participate in the wedding as her bridesmaid. It was my first time after all! :) Although, it was an expensive venture... still worth it never the less.
What else do I have to report on? Well, I now started full time with the company I was originally temping for as just a measly receptionist. I am now a customer service representative.... yet again. So far so good... I have been training for the last couple of weeks and just received my computer today. Of course, none of the programs I need to do my job actually work... so, I'm still behind and need to find alternative ways to catch up fast. That's life I guess. I'm just glad that this position will eventually do more for me than any other I've held in the past. After my 60 day probation period is up... I qualify for benefits. And, once I turn 26 this year... that's something very important to consider. For serious. I am still super grateful to Obama for allowing me to stay on my Mom's health insurance plan for as long as I possibly could. My health took a serious decline since my Dad passed.... for obvious reasons... and I'm slowly getting better and learning how to eat right and take care of myself more. You only get one life and one body to live it in.... so appreciate it all.
My little sister also graduated from the University of Illinois with a Bachelor of Science in Architecture. :) We are all so proud of her, she also maintained an outstanding GPA and graduated as a National Scholar. She was accepted into the Master's Program for Architecture Studies at U of I and will return this fall for her first year as a master's student. If my Dad could just see her now.... he would be so, so, very proud of his youngest daughter. <3
That's all she wrote.
Tuesday, May 1, 2012
Today Is The Day...
I get a 2nd surgery on my big left toe. :( I tried to take matters into my own hands, caused an infection so bad I couldn't sleep and had to go on antibiotics for 10 days straight. Now, the surgery that was supposed to stop the problem of the phantom nail.... shall be re-enacted tonight. I was told I am in the 5% group that the surgery doesn't work the first time around. Well, it better work the 2nd. Because:
That's for sure. :(
More happy stories to come later...
More happy stories to come later...
Today Is The Day...
I get a 2nd surgery on my big left toe. :( I tried to take matters into my own hands, caused an infection so bad I couldn't sleep and had to go on antibiotics for 10 days straight. Now, the surgery that was supposed to stop the problem of the phantom nail.... shall be re-enacted tonight. I was told I am in the 5% group that the surgery doesn't work the first time around. Well, it better work the 2nd. Because:
That's for sure. :(
More happy stories to come later...
More happy stories to come later...
Sunday, April 8, 2012
A Trip, A Change, A Thought or Two
A few close friends from college and I just returned from an amazing spring break trip to Las Vegas. :) It's the first time I have been back to the city of sin and I'm old enough to enjoy all of the fine things it has to offer. I gambled a bit, and in total won no more than a dollar. I never said Lady Luck was my friend, or on my side for that matter. My friend, Kate on the other hand... put in $20.00 into one slot machine and came out with $200.00! We were all jealous, naturally.
I loved the weather out there, the party like atmosphere, and in general, people are so much friendlier out west than in my neck of the woods. And, not presumptuous at all. Just talkative, helpful, folks! I would love to move out west... maybe Washington, Arizona, or California, I'm tired of the flat lands and the cold, harsh, winters I have experienced most of my life in the Midwest.
My friends and I ate delicious food, had wonderful yard long daiquiri's and margaritas from Jimmy Buffett's Margaritaville! Tabitha and I went to the Body Museum at the Luxor on the strip. The Luxor is one of my favorite hotels. I add that to The Flamingo (we had a chance to experience their pool), and The Golden Nugget (right off Fremont St. that's where we stayed to save money).
The Body Museum was by far one of the most fascinating exhibits on the human body I have ever seen. The body is a well oiled machine when all of our cells multiply correctly and keep us healthy on the inside and outside. But, when cells mutate, chromosomes change, and organs begin to behave on their own accord. It seems that the body can become a prison of sorts. I see this with my aging family members, and it's painful to watch. That's for another blog, though.
Vegas has a lot to offer. You can sit at the pool drinking the tastiest beverages I have had in a long while (they make them strong, of course), you can walk and shop along the strip, explore the amazing hotels during the day and at night. There is so much people traffic, that people watching is a sport unto itself. I could be entertained in just observing the different types of folks that venture to the city of sin. And, they do come in all different shapes and sizes!
My girls and I (Tabitha, Kate, and myself) took a 'special class' that I dare not mention too much of here. (in case of potential employers prying eyes, or past coworkers, what have you ;). I will say it was a feminine powered class and it let our inner 'kittens' out! It gave ladies the power to own their bodies fully and maintain control. This is something I need to work on myself. I have control of what I want to do. No one else can force you or put you in situations that you're uncomfortable with. That goes for dealing with creeps ladies! NO MEANS NO!!! Anywho, it was fun. Just saying.
Kate, her boyfriend- Morgan, and I (Tabitha sadly took an early flight out :( spent our last day at The Flamingo pool. It was too cold for comfort, but the heat that day was off the charts, so it cooled our bodies from the dry desert air. We sat poolside for hours sipping from hot pink plastic cups, and dancing to the dj's fun music. It was opening day for the pool, so it was pretty busy. We met an amazing group of people there! They work for an internet company based out of New York. I don't want to mention their name, just for privacy purposes. But, if any of you read this... you guys were super friendly, and we really wished we could've stayed an extra night to hang out with you all. :D They seemed like a fun crew to party with. :D
I was pretty depressed coming back to IL. Gray skies, and cold air awaited me. Gross. Something has got to change eventually.
I also have a new temporary position with a company that sells wedding albums. Again, I will not mention the name here. I am the front desk receptionist. So, I'm basically the first line of defense when it comes to incoming phone calls, as well as greeting the customers when they come in to pick up the albums. So far, so good. I'm just glad I have a job right now, and am able to pay off those nasty student loans that will loom over my head for many years to come.
I guess that's all I feel like writing about right now. Enjoy the pics. Feel free to comment, question, whatever.
That's all she wrote.
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